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I am all alone in a small Malaysian city on Borneo, I decided last minute to not get into the jungle again, as I need to realize my money are slowly but surely passing away, and I am supposed to be on holiday for another 4 months.. Bobby just called and told me he'd be more than happy to give me money so I could join the others on the jungle trip, but I said no thanks.. He's such a sweetheart, but I like to pay for my own things. It's good to know that if I ever run out of money, I can borrow some off him.
I climbed a mountain yesterday, while standing at the top, freezing cold, I felt a great feeling of achievement, that if I can climb a mountain, I can probably do anything I possibly want to do. I am doing so many wonderful things on this trip!
I miss him, every single day I miss him. I'm kind of surprised at how I haven't really ever forgotten about him, even though we've been apart for such a big amount of time. I usually do, but there is something different about this boy, something wonderfully different. I've started telling people I meet that I have a boyfriend, and it feels weird, coz it's the first time in 3 years, but I am slowly easing into being committed to someone again, even though I do love my freedom.. That's what I like about us, we do our own things, and are enjoying it, but still looking forward to seeing each other in 52 days. Almost half way, I can't wait...
I like the fact that I don't miss him in the way that it ruins my Asia trip, coz I am excited about everything I am doing and will be doing in Asia, and I am truly happy to be here, having a good time with my friends. With Charlie it was different, I gave up things for him, and in hindsight, I can see that I gave up too much for him, while with Bobby, I feel we're more equal..
I am just rambling, coz I am a bit bored in this small city, and I am alone, and will go out to lunch and then find something for me to do tomorrow, while waiting for Ingrid & Line to come back from the jungle..
I climbed a mountain yesterday, while standing at the top, freezing cold, I felt a great feeling of achievement, that if I can climb a mountain, I can probably do anything I possibly want to do. I am doing so many wonderful things on this trip!
I miss him, every single day I miss him. I'm kind of surprised at how I haven't really ever forgotten about him, even though we've been apart for such a big amount of time. I usually do, but there is something different about this boy, something wonderfully different. I've started telling people I meet that I have a boyfriend, and it feels weird, coz it's the first time in 3 years, but I am slowly easing into being committed to someone again, even though I do love my freedom.. That's what I like about us, we do our own things, and are enjoying it, but still looking forward to seeing each other in 52 days. Almost half way, I can't wait...
I like the fact that I don't miss him in the way that it ruins my Asia trip, coz I am excited about everything I am doing and will be doing in Asia, and I am truly happy to be here, having a good time with my friends. With Charlie it was different, I gave up things for him, and in hindsight, I can see that I gave up too much for him, while with Bobby, I feel we're more equal..
I am just rambling, coz I am a bit bored in this small city, and I am alone, and will go out to lunch and then find something for me to do tomorrow, while waiting for Ingrid & Line to come back from the jungle..