viva la vida
I'm at work, where I usually am when I find the time to update this. I'm still working as much as ever, still as tired as ever (except more so now that I have to wake up extra early to bring Samantha to work), still broke as ever, and still miserable as ever. I'm starting to wonder whether life is the way it is because you make it that way or if the cards are already laid out for you. Obviously there is no answer. All I know is, I want to sit at home for days straight watching "Garden State" over and over by myself. I want to ponder life's questions uninterrupted. In fact, I was planning on going camping with Christopher again in two weeks. I took 3 days off from work. I'm tempted to not leave my house for those days instead. I'm not sure Christopher would be too thrilled with that idea. I just think I need to be alone for a while, and let my brain think itself silly. I'm always working, and when I'm not, I'm interrupted by phone calls or visits that I have to squeeze in so people don't think that I'm avoiding them. I just want to do what I want to do and when I want to do it, and the lifestyle that I'm leading doesn't allow too much of that. I think I need to re-evaluate my situation. Only thing is, that takes time as well.