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What do I want to do with my life? What sort of person do I want to be? What sort of job do I want to have? Where do I hope to end up? Why can't a person exist with the sole purpose to tell me the answers to these questions? Maybe then I would not continue going round in circles trying to answer them myself and always ending back at the start, the start being my room, past midnight, still unemployed, living at home, insecure and unmotivated. . Lazy can probably also be added to that list, why stop at unmotivated? There is far more about me when it comes to that field of negativity, but that's enough for one post.
I wish someone would just....come riding down from the heavens on a cloud, highlighted by a brilliant sunray with some sort of cheesy angel choir playing as they outstretched their hand to me and offered me a job.
No wait, that won't do, as per the start of this entry, I don't know what I want to do therefore I have no idea what this mythical 'dream job' even is, or if it even exists.
Money, yes, they could hand me money. Not enough for my entire lifetime, just enough for me to continue lingering and contemplating what sort of job I want to have.
Though then that takes me back to being lazy, and fueling that negative trait of mine. It's powerful enough as it is, who knows what will happen if I allowed it to get worse. Perhaps I wouldn't even bother getting out of bed anymore.
Oh wait! Magical powers, yes that's what I want! Anything, I don't care, just something that will help me stand out from the rest and make me feel like I'm worth something, will make me interesting to be around with, and maybe then people would be flocking to hand me jobs as well.
Am I too old for this?
I wish someone would just....come riding down from the heavens on a cloud, highlighted by a brilliant sunray with some sort of cheesy angel choir playing as they outstretched their hand to me and offered me a job.
No wait, that won't do, as per the start of this entry, I don't know what I want to do therefore I have no idea what this mythical 'dream job' even is, or if it even exists.
Money, yes, they could hand me money. Not enough for my entire lifetime, just enough for me to continue lingering and contemplating what sort of job I want to have.
Though then that takes me back to being lazy, and fueling that negative trait of mine. It's powerful enough as it is, who knows what will happen if I allowed it to get worse. Perhaps I wouldn't even bother getting out of bed anymore.
Oh wait! Magical powers, yes that's what I want! Anything, I don't care, just something that will help me stand out from the rest and make me feel like I'm worth something, will make me interesting to be around with, and maybe then people would be flocking to hand me jobs as well.
Am I too old for this?