ARrrrgh!
What the fuck is wrong with the world today?! I've been job hunting for months now and NOBODY is willing to even give me a chance at working at a decent job. Not that it even fucking matters now, even if I had a good paying job right now it wouldn't be enough to get me to avoid getting evicted soon @_@
It's not like I'm stupid with my money! I've saved almost every penny possible! My paychecks from my jobs go directly towards bills, then the rest is saved for rent, and in 6 months, I still can't even afford ONE MONTH OF RENT.
And places are GREAT about helping me with this too, I get an interview, then I do call backs every day almost. Some of these places are just saying "sorry we call u later lol" every fucking day, almost for 3 months now! What the fuck dude!? I'm sick of this shit!
Also, it's not like I can really sell any of my stuff. Games? Oh sure, I'll make like, $20. Whoopy fucking doo. What else do I own? A guitar? Can't sell that, parents would castrate me. GBASP? Nope, girlfriend will kill me. Computer? Heh, what, for $5? Seriously. What the fuck?
I don't want to have to ask people for help, but I'm probably going to need to! It sucks. You have any idea how hard it is to pull yourself out of bed in this situation? You almost can't. If I didn't have Sarah relying on me to pay that rent, I'd just sit there and die. I'm so pissed at everything right now.
Speaking of Sarah, I think she's starting to hate me. I don't blame her. She's got a million things to do all day, and what do I do? Go fill out applications, call jobs back, clean the house, then work on personal projects, play games, or zone out depressing about everything. I'm starting to think that she's better off without me, I'm only bringing her down. 'Course I'm not going to simply give up, I've got to atleast do my best. Chances are she'll break up with me when the lease is up though, for putting her through all of this hell.
I had a nightmare last night. I got my inheritence check in december, and it was for only $60.00. I flipped out and murdered everyone I had ever seen before.
If anyone is reading (and not laughing at my misfortune), I'm asking for help in any way possible. Advice, donations, ANYTHING.
Send advice to chenzi9x@yahoo.com
Donate on my website: http://home.comcast.net/andrewlazzaro/funkyfeet (button on the bottom of the page)
Blah... This society is fucking retarded. It's supposed to work like this:
* Don't do anything illegal and you'll be rewarded
* Hard work pays off
* Criminals are punished
But here's how it works in reality:
* Illegal stuff gets you extra cash, friends, and etc.
* Hard work is ignored
* Criminals never get caught, so who cares, DO IT.
Thanks alot society, I think I'll go loot someone, use their money to buy drugs, then sell the drugs to teenagers. Oh, then I'll go to my mansion and sleep on the couch all day watching HBO.
There you are society, fuck you. Fuck you again, and fuck you some more.
Someday hopefully this'll change. If it doesn't, I hope I can be the one to change it.
It's not like I'm stupid with my money! I've saved almost every penny possible! My paychecks from my jobs go directly towards bills, then the rest is saved for rent, and in 6 months, I still can't even afford ONE MONTH OF RENT.
And places are GREAT about helping me with this too, I get an interview, then I do call backs every day almost. Some of these places are just saying "sorry we call u later lol" every fucking day, almost for 3 months now! What the fuck dude!? I'm sick of this shit!
Also, it's not like I can really sell any of my stuff. Games? Oh sure, I'll make like, $20. Whoopy fucking doo. What else do I own? A guitar? Can't sell that, parents would castrate me. GBASP? Nope, girlfriend will kill me. Computer? Heh, what, for $5? Seriously. What the fuck?
I don't want to have to ask people for help, but I'm probably going to need to! It sucks. You have any idea how hard it is to pull yourself out of bed in this situation? You almost can't. If I didn't have Sarah relying on me to pay that rent, I'd just sit there and die. I'm so pissed at everything right now.
Speaking of Sarah, I think she's starting to hate me. I don't blame her. She's got a million things to do all day, and what do I do? Go fill out applications, call jobs back, clean the house, then work on personal projects, play games, or zone out depressing about everything. I'm starting to think that she's better off without me, I'm only bringing her down. 'Course I'm not going to simply give up, I've got to atleast do my best. Chances are she'll break up with me when the lease is up though, for putting her through all of this hell.
I had a nightmare last night. I got my inheritence check in december, and it was for only $60.00. I flipped out and murdered everyone I had ever seen before.
If anyone is reading (and not laughing at my misfortune), I'm asking for help in any way possible. Advice, donations, ANYTHING.
Send advice to chenzi9x@yahoo.com
Donate on my website: http://home.comcast.net/andrewlazzaro/funkyfeet (button on the bottom of the page)
Blah... This society is fucking retarded. It's supposed to work like this:
* Don't do anything illegal and you'll be rewarded
* Hard work pays off
* Criminals are punished
But here's how it works in reality:
* Illegal stuff gets you extra cash, friends, and etc.
* Hard work is ignored
* Criminals never get caught, so who cares, DO IT.
Thanks alot society, I think I'll go loot someone, use their money to buy drugs, then sell the drugs to teenagers. Oh, then I'll go to my mansion and sleep on the couch all day watching HBO.
There you are society, fuck you. Fuck you again, and fuck you some more.
Someday hopefully this'll change. If it doesn't, I hope I can be the one to change it.