could my life be any more of a freaking rollar coaster ride!!!
haven't written in awhile lots been going on..lannie and april want me out i guess im to much of an inconvience for them..i dont know i was really pissed though that you left a note and didn't talk to me how old are we again...i told you april I wasn't spending my entire vacation looking for a place...but whatever i guess i should have been looking sooner anyways...
i really still can't believe that ryan killed the kitten and im kinda pissed at you two for not being awake you have a kid you have responsibilities you need to be awake what if he had some how turned the stove on and burnt himself or hurt himself i just dont understand you two!! but its not my place either...
my gf kaiti left last thursday for college in vt..i miss her so much...its not the same without her and i noticed lately i haven't been as happy. i forgot to pay my cell bill so my phone is off so its making it harder for us to even talk to each other...i love how she can make me smile just by doing nothing and gives me energy that i have been missing for years...
RYAN it was good seeing you and mannie at the house in wentworth maybe now we can hang out more when i don't go visit kaiti in vt...
talked to emily today online which i think just managed to piss me off even more. im kinda glad im not moving to florida im so sick of them trying to run my life and tell me what i should do you dont know the situation and your not me!!! so stop already!!! i know no one wants to see me hurt but its my choice and thats final!!!
i'm getting back into my independt state again where i dont need anyone but i do i need my kaiti and my friends but lately i can't even call some of them my friends cause they are the ones that are pushing me away from them and i don't want to be around them cause they are frustrating me and depressing me cause they never want to do anything with me...
im in the process of moving again and i so hate moving so money is becoming a issue as usuall but i will be fine even though some people still owe me money when will i ever learn not to lend money cause i always get stabbed in the back for it!!!
who knows im sure everything will work out eventually..at least my job is going really well and soon i will have a new place to live so i will have fun redecorating my room from scratch cause i have a computer, radio, tv,dvd player, movies and clothes so i will be looking for a new bed, dresser and desk soon when i have the money...im not worried though and trying to stay stress free cause i know i will eventually get everything and its not really a big deal to me cause its just stuff..ya know..just a little late spring cleaning thats all...
the one important thing i have learned is that im the only one that can make me happy and i need to make changes if im not and thats what im doing trying to make myself happy get causght up on bills again cause i have been slacking and i have set my goal to have my car paid off no more than 6 months and save money at the same time cause i really want a new truck...even though all of this bullshit has been going on i have been really happy i think the happiest i have been in awhile because im doing stuff for myself and i have a great gf that is supportive!!!
i really still can't believe that ryan killed the kitten and im kinda pissed at you two for not being awake you have a kid you have responsibilities you need to be awake what if he had some how turned the stove on and burnt himself or hurt himself i just dont understand you two!! but its not my place either...
my gf kaiti left last thursday for college in vt..i miss her so much...its not the same without her and i noticed lately i haven't been as happy. i forgot to pay my cell bill so my phone is off so its making it harder for us to even talk to each other...i love how she can make me smile just by doing nothing and gives me energy that i have been missing for years...
RYAN it was good seeing you and mannie at the house in wentworth maybe now we can hang out more when i don't go visit kaiti in vt...
talked to emily today online which i think just managed to piss me off even more. im kinda glad im not moving to florida im so sick of them trying to run my life and tell me what i should do you dont know the situation and your not me!!! so stop already!!! i know no one wants to see me hurt but its my choice and thats final!!!
i'm getting back into my independt state again where i dont need anyone but i do i need my kaiti and my friends but lately i can't even call some of them my friends cause they are the ones that are pushing me away from them and i don't want to be around them cause they are frustrating me and depressing me cause they never want to do anything with me...
im in the process of moving again and i so hate moving so money is becoming a issue as usuall but i will be fine even though some people still owe me money when will i ever learn not to lend money cause i always get stabbed in the back for it!!!
who knows im sure everything will work out eventually..at least my job is going really well and soon i will have a new place to live so i will have fun redecorating my room from scratch cause i have a computer, radio, tv,dvd player, movies and clothes so i will be looking for a new bed, dresser and desk soon when i have the money...im not worried though and trying to stay stress free cause i know i will eventually get everything and its not really a big deal to me cause its just stuff..ya know..just a little late spring cleaning thats all...
the one important thing i have learned is that im the only one that can make me happy and i need to make changes if im not and thats what im doing trying to make myself happy get causght up on bills again cause i have been slacking and i have set my goal to have my car paid off no more than 6 months and save money at the same time cause i really want a new truck...even though all of this bullshit has been going on i have been really happy i think the happiest i have been in awhile because im doing stuff for myself and i have a great gf that is supportive!!!