upset
i am mad. i am mad because no one wants to me by partner and no one ever wants to go out of their way to do something with or just in general. i was always under the general consensus that i was loved by everyone. and not i find that that is most certainly not true, but is only when someone wants something or when it is convient for them. i also share way too much about myself that its to the point that people are telling me things about myself i did not want to hear and did not think they should be telling me. and that sucks and i hate them so much. my life is a sham and i will end it just like that and then we'll see when it's convient for them all. i'll do it right in the middle of final exam week, wont they all love that, i'll take away from their study time and then they will have to pay attention. i know that there is good attention and bad attention and i feel that i only get bad attention, and then i just feel like shit over it. a funeral will be bad attention disguised as good attention. we'll just see who's laughing now. i want a monument in my name. and i will have what i want. i sick of taking people's bull shit. it's all over.....