I said I loved you, but I LIED.
My life is too complicated for me to understand. I just don't even care about it anymore.
Pretty much every relationship (read:friendship) I currently find myself involved in is a waste of time, except for Ann. If you take offense to that, good, because I don't care anymore. She's the only person who hangs out with me, or talks to me, or listens to me, or cares that I try for her.
This is pretty much the worst time I've had in my life. Now, not only do I feel like I'm not important to my parents, my boyfriend, or my pseudo-friends, now even some of my best friends don't care.
I would just like to point out that no matter what I say about anything, I still have done everything I could for some of you. And you just took advantage of that, and now that I really really need someone because I can't handle everything that's going on, no one wants to be here. No one wants to fucking call. No one wants to risk getting yelled at by their parents if they come visit me. Go bond with your new best friend and tell her all your little secrets and then lie to me. You think I have no fucking clue. I'M PRETTY FUCKING SMART, GUYS.
Basically, I'm saying fuck all of you. You're all wicked stupid.
I never felt more like an outsider.
P.S. Thank you to Rich for coming to visit. I had a lovely time. Next time will be more fun.