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i've been so unbelievably and hopelessly retarded these past couple days. it's borderline pathetic. over the borderline. like in gym yesterday playing ping pong. or when i came out of my room with a box of tissues and told joe, shakim, jeremy, and justin that i was ready to "take on the world". i don't understand it really. i just know that. i need some serious medication. i'm going to get birth control on thursday. three cheers for courtney not getting pregnant ever.
and now i have some problems to address.
FUCKING CONNECTICUT BOYS. what is your fucking PROBLEM? i have had my own house for nearly a month now, and not one single one of you has been to visit me at all. that hurts. you know if you guys called my parents house, i would totally get the messages and i would call back and give you directions or even meet you somewhere. and i can't go there because my new car is still not fully functional. my feelings are KIND of hurt. jerks.
and there is that small problem. of me having a real personality issue with one of my roommates. i don't know what it is he does, but pretty much everything he says or does annoys me. i just don't click with him. i'm fairly certain things are not going to work out with him. i just don't know how to go about these things without causing serious damage.
bloody fucking hell.
i have a really excellent boyfriend though. and for the whole week and a half that he hasn't been drinking it's been wonderful. but i fear that with the conquering of his ailments he'll drink and annoy me again. it's just that he doesn't think about what he says and says mean things. i don't know, i'm over it. i harp so much.
melissa from my work is pregnant. shit is crazy. i know the most amount of pregnant or already-given-birth girls. it's weird.
i still don't feel so hot. i'll probably go to my nonnie's and sulk about it.
yeah i am pretty sure i'm going to drop out, get my GED, and enroll in college. because i cannot pull off this highschool bullshit much longer. i don't know i'm so confused.
it's like i'm going the wrong way down a one way street.