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Yesterday was kind of a batch of mixed emotions. I was still on a high from getting to hang out with Dave. I finally got to talk to Maria again yesterday morning. I hadn't talked to her in so long. It was nice. I almost forgot how much I missed her. I was so happy to talk to her, but it was kinda sad at the same time, cause I wanna see her. AND THEN...the weirdest thing ever happened. I went to check my email and saw I had a new message on myspace from David. I thought maybe Dave (the one I hung out with) had written me an email or something on there for some reason. I never in my life expected it to be who it was from. In 2001 I dated this guy for a while. I was so madly in love with him. We ended up breaking up of course. It was a really really bad break up too. I'm not gonna go into detail. It hurt me more than anything else has ever hurt me though. After we broke up I tried to keep in contact with him. I emailed him a few times, but never really got anything back. It took me forever to bounce back from that. I didn't even date anyone else until Chris, and that was last year. And that my friends, was the David I got the email from. It was so weird. I had all these flashbacks, and all these different feelings. I think about him a lot, I always have. I got over him, but from the strong feelings I had for him, I still cared about him, and wanted to be there for him. He would never let me though, so I just kinda gave up. And now he writes to me. He came across my profile on myspace. I still don't know what to think or how to feel about that.