I can never think of titles for these things..
I have so much to do and feel so incredibly overwhelmed right now. But in the end it's okay cuz I actually had fun this weekend. I was hardly in my room at all...I actually went out this weekend..the whole weekend and had a blast. The fun times never stopped.
Thursday I went to Livewire, (coffee shop w/live music) with a friend I met in the dorm. It was pretty cool. It was so sad though..I'm horrible with names; when I first meet someone it takes me forever to remember their name. Well, I didn't remember her name and the whole night I was hoping I didn't have to say her name because I would have felt awful..lol. Friday me and Angel sat around and watched a football game in the lobby of our dorm b/c it was full of guys. Then we realized that it was pointless becuase it was gusys watching a football game so we were pretty much invisible, haha. After a while we went to her friend Jims, apartment, partied a little, and stayed there for the night. I got pretty much no sleep but the night was pretty fun, interesting and eventful.
Saturday we went to Livewire again (that place is great). After that we went to Applebee's where the waiter was so overly friendly that it was crazy. He didn't leave us alone for more than five minutes. After we got back to the dorm Angel's friends Shawn and Ryan were waiting on us. Shawn had come down to visit for the weekend from Ohio and we hung out w/them for the rest of the weekend. That night ended in watching the Texas Chainsaw Masacre. (I got no sleep that night either b/c we all stayed in the same room and Shawn and Ryan snored and it kept both me and Angel up, LOL) Sunday for the most part we just layed around watched a football game and movies until Hillary, a friend of Angel's, came into Richmond. Hillary goes to college in Fla., and her classes were cancelled b/c of the hurricane so she came back home to Ohio and stopped by here. We went to Applebee's again that night and came back and played cards and just hung out. Angel's friends were all fun, outgoing people that I was glad to have met. I had so much fun this weekend; it was great.
The only problem is...(haha..of course there's something), I've felt really lonely lately. My friends are awesome, Angel's the best, I've had alot of fun hanging out w/her and everyone else over the weekend but I'm still really lonely in the sense that I want a relationship. Someone to hold me, care about me as much as I care about them, call me just to say they were thinking about me, etc. And...I guess since all my friends here have boyfriends it's getting harder and harder for me not to think about it more and more. It's like I have something missing....a whole in myself or in my life, I don't know which exactly. It's frustrating b/c I used to consider myself pretty independant, but it doesn't seem that way lately. Everyone needs someone so I guess what I'm feeling right now is reasonable...ahh!!!...I don't even really think I know what I want. I desperately want a relationship again. I want that happy feeling of knowing someone's there and cares about you so much, but then again, I don't want to get hurt again...