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[autumnagain]

i kind of hate this community because everytime i read about people's experiences and questions on E it sends a tingle down my spine and into my toes and my mouth waters

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[0therean]

E feels kind dark to me when I do it. I mean, it's just insane intense euphoria straight to the brain, but it feels like it has a really dark side to it. Perhaps this is just me.

Last time I did it, I had taken 2 and a half. I was standing outside by the road at 1 in the morning. There was a streetlamp overhead and it glowed and intense orange that washed over everything. I was looking straight down into the gravel I was standing on. There was a bug crawling around on the ground and it felt like we were connected. It was so intense and I can't even explain it. Then it stopped... because I squished it.

[almostauthentic]

I DEFINITELY know what you mean.

[almostauthentic]

[referring to the first statement]

[0therean]

Apparently, we're the only ones. Everyone I've ever talked to has no clue what I mean.

[almostauthentic]

I don't understand how people find nothing sinister about being swallowed up by a tidal wave. That's what it feels like to me, a wave so powerful and overwhelming that it's like swimming in static. I love it A LOT, don't get me wrong, but the point still stands.

[0therean]

It's like everything is PERFECT, but there's something OFF, something STRANGE - that I can never put my finger on. It feels so eerie, so beautiful... I can barely stand it. AND I LOVE IT

[f45one]

I'm always aware that I think everything is beautiful but it's a little bit tragic because even peaking I know better.

[0therean]

I must have been fucked up when I wrote that (probably). I just want to erase the words 'so beautiful' from my comment. That's better...