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so, downtown.
love/hate it.
bored in the day with nothing to do / no one to see -
fucking lame.
evenings with Jari, or out with friends -
fucking amazing.
had to skip out of lecture early today.
cable guy was supposed to be here @ 11.
of course he's late.
i hope i didn't miss anything important.
(probably not).
weird, keep running into people i know from various places.
have yet to run into one person i really want to see.
devon, where are you?
classes are... predictable.
i really enjoyed the lecture,
(from what i was there for).
everyone else around me was sleeping.
i guess it's a good thing that i actually love art history.
and theory.
i feel like i'm kind of waiting for something,
like usual.
i thought maybe that would change once i got here.
i feel a lot more... free, if that makes sense.
it's nice to remove yourself from your previous life,
your previous reality.
i really miss my mom.
she's so upset that i don't really have time to see her.
i start my first shift at work tomorrow.
i'm really nervous,
and wondering if i will have enough time for everything.
i guess it's also the fact that they want me to work weekends,
which means I will never see my family, (mom + brother),
and will never have weekends off to work on school stuff.
I guess...
i will just go for it.
for right now, anyways.
I just really miss my mom.
is anyone else working + doing school?
let me know.
how is it working out for you?
i'm just nervous.
like always.
sometimes i want to go home.
to my own bed.
and my own house.
and back to my old job.
where it was so easy to go day-by-day.
but then I would be so bored.
and frustrated.
and wasting my life.
i guess nervous is better than bored;
nervous leaves some room for excitement.
I don't even know what to do with myself.
i just feel really sad.
and wondering how to proceed.
love/hate it.
bored in the day with nothing to do / no one to see -
fucking lame.
evenings with Jari, or out with friends -
fucking amazing.
had to skip out of lecture early today.
cable guy was supposed to be here @ 11.
of course he's late.
i hope i didn't miss anything important.
(probably not).
weird, keep running into people i know from various places.
have yet to run into one person i really want to see.
devon, where are you?
classes are... predictable.
i really enjoyed the lecture,
(from what i was there for).
everyone else around me was sleeping.
i guess it's a good thing that i actually love art history.
and theory.
i feel like i'm kind of waiting for something,
like usual.
i thought maybe that would change once i got here.
i feel a lot more... free, if that makes sense.
it's nice to remove yourself from your previous life,
your previous reality.
i really miss my mom.
she's so upset that i don't really have time to see her.
i start my first shift at work tomorrow.
i'm really nervous,
and wondering if i will have enough time for everything.
i guess it's also the fact that they want me to work weekends,
which means I will never see my family, (mom + brother),
and will never have weekends off to work on school stuff.
I guess...
i will just go for it.
for right now, anyways.
I just really miss my mom.
is anyone else working + doing school?
let me know.
how is it working out for you?
i'm just nervous.
like always.
sometimes i want to go home.
to my own bed.
and my own house.
and back to my old job.
where it was so easy to go day-by-day.
but then I would be so bored.
and frustrated.
and wasting my life.
i guess nervous is better than bored;
nervous leaves some room for excitement.
I don't even know what to do with myself.
i just feel really sad.
and wondering how to proceed.