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i never come on here and no one reads this.
i went out tonight and it still bugs me that i cant drink. sober almost three months. i really could have used some drinks tonight. im angry and tired and left out. but its my own fault, aside from the angry part. i want all this shit to be over. i want to be able to live my life the way i choose, not the way ive been asked. i want to be appreciated and cared for, not set aside and lied to. sometimes i feel like i should have never left long beach, but i know if i was there i would be mad that i wasnt here in portland. i love this city and i love my new friends. i just dont love my life and i really dont know if i ever will. i should really put my foot down more often. simple. as. that.
fuck you and goodnight.
i went out tonight and it still bugs me that i cant drink. sober almost three months. i really could have used some drinks tonight. im angry and tired and left out. but its my own fault, aside from the angry part. i want all this shit to be over. i want to be able to live my life the way i choose, not the way ive been asked. i want to be appreciated and cared for, not set aside and lied to. sometimes i feel like i should have never left long beach, but i know if i was there i would be mad that i wasnt here in portland. i love this city and i love my new friends. i just dont love my life and i really dont know if i ever will. i should really put my foot down more often. simple. as. that.
fuck you and goodnight.