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[chemicalembrace]

i wish things weren't the way they are right now. i know that these things take time. and it hasn't even been a month yet. but it seems to get easier, then it gets harder again. things are supposed to get worse before they can get better. i am just doubting if things ever will. it's so strange now. we hardly talk. when we do, it's meaningless conversation. i guess that's a start. or maybe it's an end? i hope not.

i want to be able to do this.