gezus.... i just wanted to say whats up and update you on the latest. my mom told me you called a couple weeks ago, i'm sorry i've had a lot going on. you wanna hear some fucked up happy horseshit? tomorrow i'm going into treatment again, but not for drugs. i'm motherfucking anorexic. i've been hospitalized twice in the past week for it and as much as i like wearing hospital gowns (bizarre fetish, no?) this is just not doing it for me anymore. you can call my mom and get updates on me, i'm only going to be in treatment for a month and then i'll be out and back in anaheim. anyways, i love you and miss you more than you can imagine and will hopefully talk to you soon.
When i was all sad about the stuff with scrawnger a few months ago you said to me "when your upset you should excercize" or somehting like that... And then, seeing you all skinny, freaked me out. Darin said soemthing about it that kindof put all the pieces ttogather for me. That why i have been trying ot get a hold of you.
This is going to make everything sound worse, but when i saw you all skinny and pretty, i started the old spewwing maddness and excercizing too much.. For the past couple weeks i've been exploding from every orafice. And eating about 2 times a week. Friday i decided i needed to stop all this fucked up shit and i started calling around looking for treatment facilities.
Kaiser insurence doesnt really cover much, so i looks like i'm aone on this one..
You and i are so fucking perfect. I love you. Call me asap.
i love you. i want you to know that. i got out of treatment today. i cant wait to talk to you, i've got stories like you wouldnt believe. i'll call as soon as i can.
Monster LOVE <333 I misss you! i hope your doing well... Maybe at soem point, when i decide to be ready, you can teach me what you learned there.. maybe not.. I Dunnoo... I want to come see you within the next few weeks.. I have so much to tell you.. <333 Call me soon, please..
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When i was all sad about the stuff with scrawnger a few months ago you said to me "when your upset you should excercize" or somehting like that... And then, seeing you all skinny, freaked me out. Darin said soemthing about it that kindof put all the pieces ttogather for me. That why i have been trying ot get a hold of you.
This is going to make everything sound worse, but when i saw you all skinny and pretty, i started the old spewwing maddness and excercizing too much.. For the past couple weeks i've been exploding from every orafice. And eating about 2 times a week.
Friday i decided i needed to stop all this fucked up shit and i started calling around looking for treatment facilities.
Kaiser insurence doesnt really cover much, so i looks like i'm aone on this one..
You and i are so fucking perfect. I love you. Call me asap.
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