another one...
okay, this is one of those entries where i bitch.
life at home isnt too peachy. my mom is all over me about the stupidest things. like, im grounded cause i left my cell at racheals. what the fuck? theres more, but im not in the mood.
life in relation to the band is doing pretty good. we've got a lot done. we'll be ready to play shows in a few weeks. we have 4 complete songs, and one without lyrics (which im working on now). its going really well. this band feels...right?
life in relation to girls...oh, what life? the longest dry spell of my life! im dying. and not to mention, my heart is all sorts of fucked up. i have no idea where i stand on ANYTHING anymore. its actually quite depressing...whatever. ive tried to fix things, make her see what i still see...ha to no avail. its pointless, i know...but hell, im not gunna stop trying anytime soon. i love her...more than anyone can understand. i really miss her...i miss her a lot. i miss us being together, cuddling and kissing... yeah, im pathetic.
ive gotta get outta here...and im begging you to be my escape.
im so tired...im so pissed off...and im so alone.
theres more...but that will come later.
who i am hates who ive been,
x j x
life at home isnt too peachy. my mom is all over me about the stupidest things. like, im grounded cause i left my cell at racheals. what the fuck? theres more, but im not in the mood.
life in relation to the band is doing pretty good. we've got a lot done. we'll be ready to play shows in a few weeks. we have 4 complete songs, and one without lyrics (which im working on now). its going really well. this band feels...right?
life in relation to girls...oh, what life? the longest dry spell of my life! im dying. and not to mention, my heart is all sorts of fucked up. i have no idea where i stand on ANYTHING anymore. its actually quite depressing...whatever. ive tried to fix things, make her see what i still see...ha to no avail. its pointless, i know...but hell, im not gunna stop trying anytime soon. i love her...more than anyone can understand. i really miss her...i miss her a lot. i miss us being together, cuddling and kissing... yeah, im pathetic.
ive gotta get outta here...and im begging you to be my escape.
im so tired...im so pissed off...and im so alone.
theres more...but that will come later.
who i am hates who ive been,
x j x