i wanna fall in love
okay, so this is one of those entry's that are all bitching and complaining. so, be prepared...
so, alot of things are running through my head at the moment. like, i need to do better in school. cause i am so dissappointed in myself these days. i really dont like me very much at the moment. also, i really need someone constant in my life. i need a girl/guy i can count on to love me no matter what, to listen to me when i need to vent, to hold me when im upset, to keep me sane. ive realized that ive always moved from one girl to another. jess (with a 7 month gap) to katrina, katrina to kelly, kelly to katie. (also, i have a "k" fetish lol ). ive never really had time to just be...me? to find someone. its always been settling with one person or another. and that pisses me off, because its sad that ive only found 4 girls in my life that have suitably hooked me to date them. FOUR!!! what the hell? i need someone...and yeah, it sounds pathetic, to NEED someone. but its true. i crave companionship in the worst way. i am only truly happy when i know that when i wake up, that someone is there for me. i think its the best feeling in the world, when you wake up in the morning and you know that you HAVE someone...that you arent alone. i need that in my life again. also, familiarity... i need that. i hate dating because i like being comfortable with someone, knowing them inside and out... being able to be myself around them. its why i ran to kelly when katie broke up with me. its sad, and i know it. i know that theres someone out there for me, someone im meant to be with. i believe in fate. argue with me all you like, but i believe certain things are predestined... like soul mates. call me a hopeless romantic, but i believe in it. jess and i werent meant to be. katrina and i werent mean to be. kelly and i werent meant to be. katie and i arent meant to be. so, someone tell me, who is meant to be with me? ive gotta say, im tired of waiting. im tired of waking up alone. frankly, i want love again. i want someone to love me. i want to be kissed for more than the sake of getting some. scary, hearing that coming from me, huh? well, ohhhh noooo! jeremy smith has turned a new leaf!
im so done bitching. its pointless. dont read this. ever.
oh yeah....
BITCHES, STOP FIGHTING ON MY JOURNAL! MY COMMENTS ARE NEVER NICE....THEY'RE ALWAYS "GAHHH I HATE YOU!" AND "BAHHHH I HATE YOU RIGHT BACK SLUT!" AND WHAT NOT. STOP STOP STOP!!! GAH I HATE YOU ALL! (just kidding!)
oh yeah...
ARGH IM FREAKIN HORNY!
eyes baptized in mercury,
x j x
so, alot of things are running through my head at the moment. like, i need to do better in school. cause i am so dissappointed in myself these days. i really dont like me very much at the moment. also, i really need someone constant in my life. i need a girl/guy i can count on to love me no matter what, to listen to me when i need to vent, to hold me when im upset, to keep me sane. ive realized that ive always moved from one girl to another. jess (with a 7 month gap) to katrina, katrina to kelly, kelly to katie. (also, i have a "k" fetish lol ). ive never really had time to just be...me? to find someone. its always been settling with one person or another. and that pisses me off, because its sad that ive only found 4 girls in my life that have suitably hooked me to date them. FOUR!!! what the hell? i need someone...and yeah, it sounds pathetic, to NEED someone. but its true. i crave companionship in the worst way. i am only truly happy when i know that when i wake up, that someone is there for me. i think its the best feeling in the world, when you wake up in the morning and you know that you HAVE someone...that you arent alone. i need that in my life again. also, familiarity... i need that. i hate dating because i like being comfortable with someone, knowing them inside and out... being able to be myself around them. its why i ran to kelly when katie broke up with me. its sad, and i know it. i know that theres someone out there for me, someone im meant to be with. i believe in fate. argue with me all you like, but i believe certain things are predestined... like soul mates. call me a hopeless romantic, but i believe in it. jess and i werent meant to be. katrina and i werent mean to be. kelly and i werent meant to be. katie and i arent meant to be. so, someone tell me, who is meant to be with me? ive gotta say, im tired of waiting. im tired of waking up alone. frankly, i want love again. i want someone to love me. i want to be kissed for more than the sake of getting some. scary, hearing that coming from me, huh? well, ohhhh noooo! jeremy smith has turned a new leaf!
im so done bitching. its pointless. dont read this. ever.
oh yeah....
BITCHES, STOP FIGHTING ON MY JOURNAL! MY COMMENTS ARE NEVER NICE....THEY'RE ALWAYS "GAHHH I HATE YOU!" AND "BAHHHH I HATE YOU RIGHT BACK SLUT!" AND WHAT NOT. STOP STOP STOP!!! GAH I HATE YOU ALL! (just kidding!)
oh yeah...
ARGH IM FREAKIN HORNY!
eyes baptized in mercury,
x j x