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...why do you have to lie to me? just tell me the truth. you either
hate me or not. you either want me in your life. or not.you either still love me. or never did. you cant keep bringing me back in and pushing me away. it doesnt work that way anymore. are you afraid to hurt me again? i dont know why you would be, you never were before. there were so many times that we came back to eachother. you kept asking about him and i told you the truth.
is it so hard for you to tell it to me its all about her now. does she
know you told me you missed me? that we hung out that night. that you
called. does she know, i was your definition of love for so long. does she know that everytime the song you and me or my best friend comes on when you guys are driving in your car. that my name will fill your head. let alone your heart.because those lyrics arent just lyrics, they explain us.
does she know that your bed, where shes going to lay, had my name
written all over it. for so long. & It still feels like i belong
there. & when she reaches into your sweatshirt pocket, and asks you
why that holes there. my name will fill your head once more.or when she
tells you nice shirt. where'd you get it? what are you going to tell
her.i hope she knows that when you guys go down to the river. that was
my spot first. i dont think
anyone could replace that.dont take her to secret sidewalk. dont write
about her. dont cry over her. those were all the things you did with me. So when you guys are driving around. or just laying around. when you look at her and dont see me there with you. you wont be
looking into my eyes.that you told mine are so different from anyone
elses. or seeing my smile. or touching my face. will she talk to you
about life, about love, about your future, like we did, and when you pick up the phone, itll be her voice, not mine.is that really what you want?.i hope she knows what shes getting herself into. because, your heart already belongs to someone else.& will she be there for you like i have been.? will she give up everything just to make you happy. will she love you
with everything in her, like i have. will she hold your hand when you
feel like your alone. will she pull your head up so she can see you
smile. will she take you away. so you dont have to deal with things at
home.will she kiss you the way you like to be kissed. will she kiss you like i did. you've done it. you've pushed me so far out of reach that i cant even feel the pain you are trying to cause me anymore.you have made it clear that i am just a burden, but if having someone accept you for who you are, is a burden, then i guess im guilty.& because of you i cant trust anyone.not even myself. will she tell you she loves you. and mean it like i did.. will you tell her you love her and mean it? who else is always going to be yours?.
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This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay...” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...
Hmm..Please Don't Comment. Just Found Those, and they kinda fit. Made Me think...
<3 Chelsea Lynn
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This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay...” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...
Hmm..Please Don't Comment. Just Found Those, and they kinda fit. Made Me think...
<3 Chelsea Lynn