well well well...
these past few weeks have been a whirlwind. i've been really emotional about pretty much everything and i'm sure i've annoyed quite a few people...i think it's just a phase, it should pass any day now...i hope.
so i'm doing pretty bad in school right now...i'm really really having to apply myself in my classes, something i've never really had to do before, and it's just not working out. all these honors and AP classes are not cool, i really hope i dont screw up my GPA...then i'll be mad. i'm really grade-concious and now that i'm struggling in school, i'm getting really stressed, it just isn't a very good situation.
there's a lot of stuff going on in my head right now. like...i dont know, my self-confidence level is really low...maybe that's why i'm not doing good in school and having a really bad attitude...i dont know....there are so many things i want right now...i want a guy...i know i know...selfish and immature, but i really do. now's the time in school where everybody's getting boyfriends and gilfriends and i feel left out...haha, i dont even like anyone right now, but i feel like i should...and i want to, but there's no one...no one that would be good for me...at least, not any that i can find...maybe in a month or so...that would be nice... but i dont really have a way to fix it. i'm just in a rutt i guess...
FCA was really good last night....major props to Coach Snell...he's a cool guy. we talked about faith...and how going through high-school with Jesus by your side is the most helpful thing you can do for yourself...just knowing that he's there all the time for you to lean on...it's a really good feeling. Snelly also told us about mercy-assurance that God will never allow the pressures or heartaches of life be more than you can bear. that made me feel a lot better about the school situation...if you just take a minute to think about everything and put it into perspective...there are way better things to worry about...so there's a life lesson from coach snell to me to you.
eh...i guess that's all for now...leave me some comments...call me if you need to chat, i'm always free for some socializing.
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