So were back to serious now are we chels?
Okay so I'll try to make this short and painless for you all, but it's just some ponderings that I have in my head...
I have a friend that I got rid of and then I now have back... but when we rejuvenated our relationship (like a flower in spring?) I told that person that I am not just going to be an on off friend with you... because thats just not our style and I can't do that with some people, some people have to be there all the time and not just for when things go bad because my friend, lets call Boq, has been there when it's bad and vice versa... but not just for normality like Boq promised... and it's not my turn to pick up a phone, yes i know i know i know that it is not about turns, but with us, it is... it always has been... and i also informed boq that i can't do all or really any of the calling... so i'm not mad or upset really... i'm just kinda feeling like an idiot... almost like I fell for something that wasn't there... and i'm not even saying it isn't there, but maybe it is... i hope its there... because even though i can handle if it wasn't, i would still like it to be... it could easily be a misunderstanding or busyness, but knowing boq and our relationship, it's something... well... if this made sense at all to any of you, congratulations... you're ahead of me...
Okay... so I go home REALLY soon... not sure how my 9 days are going to play out... I am working 7 shifts at applebee's... all days, except a double this sunday... i have a feeling most of my week will be spent in my house due to recent events, like everyone finding out that they disapprove of my life... I'm thinking they aren't so eager to hang out except mabe to use me for my house... but I am okay with that, not with the house thing, but eagerness thing... honestly, i am... I am leaving it up to everyone else to contact me, because if they want to see me, they know how to... and i don't know how everyone really feels about stuff... well i believe tomorrow is another night of fun with Chris and Eric... so goodnight for now!
PS... I hate snow and wind and cold... the end
I have a friend that I got rid of and then I now have back... but when we rejuvenated our relationship (like a flower in spring?) I told that person that I am not just going to be an on off friend with you... because thats just not our style and I can't do that with some people, some people have to be there all the time and not just for when things go bad because my friend, lets call Boq, has been there when it's bad and vice versa... but not just for normality like Boq promised... and it's not my turn to pick up a phone, yes i know i know i know that it is not about turns, but with us, it is... it always has been... and i also informed boq that i can't do all or really any of the calling... so i'm not mad or upset really... i'm just kinda feeling like an idiot... almost like I fell for something that wasn't there... and i'm not even saying it isn't there, but maybe it is... i hope its there... because even though i can handle if it wasn't, i would still like it to be... it could easily be a misunderstanding or busyness, but knowing boq and our relationship, it's something... well... if this made sense at all to any of you, congratulations... you're ahead of me...
Okay... so I go home REALLY soon... not sure how my 9 days are going to play out... I am working 7 shifts at applebee's... all days, except a double this sunday... i have a feeling most of my week will be spent in my house due to recent events, like everyone finding out that they disapprove of my life... I'm thinking they aren't so eager to hang out except mabe to use me for my house... but I am okay with that, not with the house thing, but eagerness thing... honestly, i am... I am leaving it up to everyone else to contact me, because if they want to see me, they know how to... and i don't know how everyone really feels about stuff... well i believe tomorrow is another night of fun with Chris and Eric... so goodnight for now!
PS... I hate snow and wind and cold... the end