its the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you.
so it's 2007 how exciting?
my new years eve was actually pretty good
i spent it with people i care about and i had some fun.
new years morning was awful a bunch of crazy stuff happened
and it was a disaster. i didnt really have anything to do
with it but i felt like it was part my fault anyways. (my friends
house got broken into by some crazy drunk f'ed up kid.)
it's not the best way to start off the new year also
one of my best friends moved and that sucked really bad
i'm still depressed from it because i was with her everyday
i miss her so much i hope she is okay and that this is good for
her i think it will be i love her so much! also, a bad way to start off
new year my phone broke and i lost all my phone numbers i had in there.
i know everytime i put an entry in here it's horrible and i'm just extremely
bitter and i'm honestly sick of feeling this way! i wish i could get better and be happy but that never happens no matter what i'm always fucking miserable and even when i'm with my friends i feel like i put on some act because even though im laughing and having a good time i'm still dealing with so much shit and so much bitterness. i'm so sick of living the way i've been living. i'm sick of lying to my mom about who i'm hanging out with because she can't trust them. i'm sick of getting my best friends and people i love and care about taken out of my life. that's all my life has been since i was seven. it fucking sucks and that's why it's so hard for me to trust people and be completely open with them now. i feel so alone all the time and sure i can call someone and have them come over and hangout with me or something but i'll still feel so empty because i've put such a guard up that no one can get through to me. i'm stubborn,miserable, and lazy. seriously, just fucking kill me someone because nothing can make me better at this point. i'm so sick of this shit.
i'm done.
my new years eve was actually pretty good
i spent it with people i care about and i had some fun.
new years morning was awful a bunch of crazy stuff happened
and it was a disaster. i didnt really have anything to do
with it but i felt like it was part my fault anyways. (my friends
house got broken into by some crazy drunk f'ed up kid.)
it's not the best way to start off the new year also
one of my best friends moved and that sucked really bad
i'm still depressed from it because i was with her everyday
i miss her so much i hope she is okay and that this is good for
her i think it will be i love her so much! also, a bad way to start off
new year my phone broke and i lost all my phone numbers i had in there.
i know everytime i put an entry in here it's horrible and i'm just extremely
bitter and i'm honestly sick of feeling this way! i wish i could get better and be happy but that never happens no matter what i'm always fucking miserable and even when i'm with my friends i feel like i put on some act because even though im laughing and having a good time i'm still dealing with so much shit and so much bitterness. i'm so sick of living the way i've been living. i'm sick of lying to my mom about who i'm hanging out with because she can't trust them. i'm sick of getting my best friends and people i love and care about taken out of my life. that's all my life has been since i was seven. it fucking sucks and that's why it's so hard for me to trust people and be completely open with them now. i feel so alone all the time and sure i can call someone and have them come over and hangout with me or something but i'll still feel so empty because i've put such a guard up that no one can get through to me. i'm stubborn,miserable, and lazy. seriously, just fucking kill me someone because nothing can make me better at this point. i'm so sick of this shit.
i'm done.