well.sss
It's seems to me everyday is somehow the same.
I wake in an okay mood.
I go to sleep in a okay mood.
I think I dug myself in a rut.
I have no college... I work at wally world.
I feel so depressed.
Like everyone else on this lj, I don't like myself right now.
I fucked up to 14 guys within 6 months.
I'm not proud of that at all.
But I don't regret any of it.
I try to be myself.
I try to make a difference.
to make everyone laugh,smile,like 'them'selves.
I buy a lot of things for those who need it.
you know... help them out.
I wish someone would help me out.
i have a bf and he is being spoild by me.
I need to stop, cuz if i don't , this will not last long.
I have a bad rep for fuckin relationships up.
That's why I never have them.
I miss hanging out with my 'was best friend', Aurora.
She was awesome.
Sooo many inside jokes.
But... People change.
I know that.
I just wish we would talk more often.
I like solitude.
I like being alone.
I like listening to music by myself...
Independent I am... but I still wish I could hold someones hand at times.
I wish Jeremy would back off a tad...
He said something like, "Is this too much?"
I should have said yes.
But If I did say that, he would have gotten offended.
So...
This is complicated.
I wish I was 7 again.
Just go out and play with friends.
Tag, freeze tag, smash eggs, climb trees, sidewalk chalk, parents still together.
I have a job, a boyfriend, responsibilites, a bank account.
Just in short... I don't like what I have become.
It's just shitty.
I wake in an okay mood.
I go to sleep in a okay mood.
I think I dug myself in a rut.
I have no college... I work at wally world.
I feel so depressed.
Like everyone else on this lj, I don't like myself right now.
I fucked up to 14 guys within 6 months.
I'm not proud of that at all.
But I don't regret any of it.
I try to be myself.
I try to make a difference.
to make everyone laugh,smile,like 'them'selves.
I buy a lot of things for those who need it.
you know... help them out.
I wish someone would help me out.
i have a bf and he is being spoild by me.
I need to stop, cuz if i don't , this will not last long.
I have a bad rep for fuckin relationships up.
That's why I never have them.
I miss hanging out with my 'was best friend', Aurora.
She was awesome.
Sooo many inside jokes.
But... People change.
I know that.
I just wish we would talk more often.
I like solitude.
I like being alone.
I like listening to music by myself...
Independent I am... but I still wish I could hold someones hand at times.
I wish Jeremy would back off a tad...
He said something like, "Is this too much?"
I should have said yes.
But If I did say that, he would have gotten offended.
So...
This is complicated.
I wish I was 7 again.
Just go out and play with friends.
Tag, freeze tag, smash eggs, climb trees, sidewalk chalk, parents still together.
I have a job, a boyfriend, responsibilites, a bank account.
Just in short... I don't like what I have become.
It's just shitty.