can't you see, you've already captured me
well for some reason i still feelike shit over the whole tim breaking up with me. I thought i was doing good and getting over him. so then why can't i stop thinking about him. it has been so hard to get my mind to think about somthing else.all i felt like doing today was crying. i miss him so much. I never knew how much this would hurt. especially since the whole thing came out of nowhere. i really dont understand.and what i also dont understand is how you can just stop likeing someone so quickly.like one day you are all happy and you like them so much and then the next day you are debating whether or not you still want ot go out with that person. if anyone has a good explanation on how that can happen please please enlighten me because maybe if i knew it would make me feel better. I seriously feel like i am no good. like my self esteem has just dropped dramatically over this whole situation.and i have to say that my self esteem wasn't high in the first place.I just don't feel good enouph, like i think there might be somthing wrong with me. I just for some reason can't help feeling that maybe i am hard to lie,or that i get annoying, or i am ugly,or that i just can't have a good realationship with someone without some stupid shit happening. i hate sounding all depressed because i know that it can get so annoying but i just can't help feeling anything but sadness.no matter how ard i try ,no matter what else i think about.everything reminds me of tim.my favortie fuckin cd (mae ~the everglow) every song reminds me of tim. everything i do reminds me of tim. I can't even watch my favortie show CSI without getting ditracted and thinking about fucking tim and how we used to watch that show together. fuck fuck fuck.can someone please tell me why i can't get over him.
michelle and sarah spent the night last ngiht. so that helped a little to make me feel better.I just want to say that michelle baynes is an awesome person.she is such a fun person to be with. and even though we have had some bad history I think it is amazing that we are friends now.
Remembering, everything,
about my world and when you came.
Wondering, the change you’d bring,
means nothing else would be the same.
Did you know, what you were doing, did you know.
Did you know how you would move me well,
I don’t really think so.
but the night came down and swept us away.
and the stars they seemed,
to paint the most elaborate scene
When the lights first came upon us,
and we saw The Everglow.
and the moment's magic swept us away
*CHELSEA*
michelle and sarah spent the night last ngiht. so that helped a little to make me feel better.I just want to say that michelle baynes is an awesome person.she is such a fun person to be with. and even though we have had some bad history I think it is amazing that we are friends now.
Remembering, everything,
about my world and when you came.
Wondering, the change you’d bring,
means nothing else would be the same.
Did you know, what you were doing, did you know.
Did you know how you would move me well,
I don’t really think so.
but the night came down and swept us away.
and the stars they seemed,
to paint the most elaborate scene
When the lights first came upon us,
and we saw The Everglow.
and the moment's magic swept us away
*CHELSEA*