Home
Well, I called him when I got home because I promised I would. Just to let him know that I got home ok and all. He didn't seem that concerned with my well-being, just when I was coming back. I told him I couldn't take any vacation time soon. Then he said he'll come here. I told him I still can't take vacation time. He said I didn't need to. The thing is, the last time he was here he complained that I worked and he sat here alone all day. He keeps twisting things around to benefit him.
I feel much better to be home. Bill picked me up at the airport (a deal we made a while ago). I'm so distraught at my feelings for him. We talked about how Joe treated me, then he told me I'd find someone better. I had to bite back the tears. I know who's better. Bill.
Every day, I feel more and more that I made a huge mistake. That I should have give it more of a chance, more of my time and effort. I know.... coulda woulda shoulda.... but I'm hurting so much.
*sigh* First things first though.... I've got to end it with Joe. But how do I do it without feeling like a bad person?