Money should die.
To maintain an at least surviving mental condition, I must take ten minutes or so away from my work to write out my financial anxieties. I haven't even thought about money since I've been here. And suddenly it dawned on me, I still haven't taken out a private loan for second semester because dad said to wait until fall break to see what other people are doing. What other people here are doing: using their rich parents' money to pay for all of college without a drop of sweat. (There are of course exceptions: me and Claire from my floor who is actually in the same exact situation as me.)
I love Bryn Mawr so much I don't think I'll ever want to leave. This is equally amazing and frightening. Amazing because obviously I am getting such a great education; I feel like I'm finally learning and find myself in that rare awe of light-bulby moments almost daily. Frightening because staying at Bryn Mawr means massive debt. Assuming I'll keep getting the $10,000 BMC grant every year and my dad's help, I'll be about $19,000 in debt a year. That's $76,000. I don't even have one thousand dollars. I want to go to grad school and live in France. Holy fuck. Looking even farther into the future, I won't have enough money to have a family or have kids. Or buy anything but food and shelter.
Solutions:
1. Transfer out of Bryn Mawr to a cheaper school. A state school that would probably give you a full academic scholarship.
2. Change your major at Bryn Mawr to something that will make a lot lot lot of money.
Both of these options seem to me to defeat the whole point of college, since you want to go where you want to go and study what you want to study, especially when where you go has such an amazing program for your interest...
3. Stay at Bryn Mawr and drown in debt, possibly not be able to go to grad school. Not live in France. Not have a family.
FUCK.
I love Bryn Mawr so much I don't think I'll ever want to leave. This is equally amazing and frightening. Amazing because obviously I am getting such a great education; I feel like I'm finally learning and find myself in that rare awe of light-bulby moments almost daily. Frightening because staying at Bryn Mawr means massive debt. Assuming I'll keep getting the $10,000 BMC grant every year and my dad's help, I'll be about $19,000 in debt a year. That's $76,000. I don't even have one thousand dollars. I want to go to grad school and live in France. Holy fuck. Looking even farther into the future, I won't have enough money to have a family or have kids. Or buy anything but food and shelter.
Solutions:
1. Transfer out of Bryn Mawr to a cheaper school. A state school that would probably give you a full academic scholarship.
2. Change your major at Bryn Mawr to something that will make a lot lot lot of money.
Both of these options seem to me to defeat the whole point of college, since you want to go where you want to go and study what you want to study, especially when where you go has such an amazing program for your interest...
3. Stay at Bryn Mawr and drown in debt, possibly not be able to go to grad school. Not live in France. Not have a family.
FUCK.