Do YoU eVeR wOnDeR...
Do you ever wonder why some people exit your life and then suddenly come back into it? I am currently in the middle of pondering that question. Someone that I haven't thought about in a long time, has just now decided to try and start speaking with me again. I'm not against it, but I'm not sure of exactly how I feel. He e-mailed me and I was so surprised when I opened it and figured out who it was from. All of these emotions stirred inside of me and all of these feelings that I have pushed deep down into my soul, suddenly emerged and overwhelmed me. I had forgotten how much it hurt when he left my life. I don't think that I have ever cried that much in my life, before or after that moment. I don't think that I have ever hurt or felt that weak, either. Now he's slowly coming back into my life and I can't help but wonder why. He wants to see me when he comes home around christmas time...and I want to see him, but what kinds of feelings is it going to bring back. Ya know? I don't want to have to re-live all of that hurt again. He wants to "hopefully get to apologize properly." Since I read that first e-mail from him, I can't get him out of my head and I haven't thought about him in soooo long. Well....let's get ready for another emotional rollercoaster ride! Just can't get enough of those in one lifetime, huh? Get ready and hold on tight...
*~Chelsea~*