Things are looking up after the initial freakout.
In terms of being in love, that saying "absense makes the heart grow fonder" is true but I don't always agree with it when it comes to other things that you love...for instance, yesterday I was so confused, angry, and depressed. I let my emotions get the best of me and I was trying to think clearly with a cloud lingering over my head.
I was contemplating having to leave school and cater and baby my back condition to the point of misery. Well, just like with any kind of loss, I'm over my anger and denial phase and now I'm in my acceptance phase. My anger is lessening and the cloud is definitely subsiding.
I went to class this morning and it reminded me how much I love what I do. I am in love with what I do. Refusing myself is not an option. No matter what sacrifices I have to make, there is no way in hell I'm letting this back thing cripple me. I NEED to get better. I have no other choice. I refuse to sit and let such a great opportunity pass me by.
So, here's my plan. When I was working out 5 days a week, yes I was thin but I was also jacked. I'll take that over my back being fucked up anytime. We are buying a treadmill which I will regain my strength as well as I will start doing pilates and yoga again. By working out like I did before I really injured my back, I'll feel better mentally and physically.
I will finish school and land a great paying job.
I'm too young to have any of this affect me for long. I can do this!
I was contemplating having to leave school and cater and baby my back condition to the point of misery. Well, just like with any kind of loss, I'm over my anger and denial phase and now I'm in my acceptance phase. My anger is lessening and the cloud is definitely subsiding.
I went to class this morning and it reminded me how much I love what I do. I am in love with what I do. Refusing myself is not an option. No matter what sacrifices I have to make, there is no way in hell I'm letting this back thing cripple me. I NEED to get better. I have no other choice. I refuse to sit and let such a great opportunity pass me by.
So, here's my plan. When I was working out 5 days a week, yes I was thin but I was also jacked. I'll take that over my back being fucked up anytime. We are buying a treadmill which I will regain my strength as well as I will start doing pilates and yoga again. By working out like I did before I really injured my back, I'll feel better mentally and physically.
I will finish school and land a great paying job.
I'm too young to have any of this affect me for long. I can do this!