the things i do to the people i love
i still never posted about new york. heres a quick recap: went to gym with moms mom, garden club party on the hudson with dads, downtown with dads mom where we met talbott and ate lunch and saw the musical Man of La Mancha, which was very funny. then i got to visit my aunt aetna and uncle jay (the one who got in 2 separate motorcycle accidents and lost a leg in each one...and btw there is a book by a man named TC Boyle about a guy who got in a motorcycle wreck after drinking a little too much and swimming in the hudson river....i was talking about it with my aunt and uncle cause it reminded my of him and turns out the guy grew up with Jay and the character is actually based on him..so thats a cool thing. and i got to met their new dog zulu. roo, practically their child, died recently. then i went back with grandma and helped her bring some stuff to my aunt and uncles in connecticut where she will be staying til she moves into her new condo, which i also saw and think is pretty cool. its pretty sad to leave that house behind though. so much of my childhood was spent in that big yard and eating holiday meals with our big family and the big table we threw together. that grandma and i also went to the mall and shopped, visited my cousin matt at work, and saw legally blonde 2. later my cousin lauren came by grandmas to say hey. i miss those folks. anyways....i was sad to go, and im sad to be here now. ha. actually im ok.
so lifes ok. works still great, my great escape. also ive hung out with david schilling a few times, thats always fun. yesterday zach called and was like hey, come up to allatoona and jump off the cliff. i never really do anything spontaneous or crazy, so that was an exciting change. even though i never hit the water right and my ass is suffering the consequences :) the price we pay for fun.
WARNING: THIS IS A POINTLESS RANT, IT WILL NOT BE COVERED ON THE FINAL
jon used to make me so happy. i mean, yeah he explained that i was too much like his mom and worried too much about stuff and thats why the relationship ended..but what i didnt even have a reason to tell him was that was a huge part of why i liked him, because he was so many things that i can never be, and when i was with him i felt a little less like a mom..and a little less worried because i knew he never was. so sure, i understand, the relationship didnt work. but then i found out all this stuff he was saying...about me being annoying and never wanting to call me, insulting my body etc etc...so i guess he couldnt handle being friends with me either. so i told him i never wanted to speak to him again because to be quite frank i dont need people in my life who think any lower than me than i do of myself. naturally, he denied the whole thing, said the person i was getting my information from was making it up, and then that the person i was getting it from said the same stuff and laughed about it with him (at the same time confirming that he did indeed make fun of me) so that hurt pretty bad. but then i was thinking about it, and it made me feel good to think how many people would stick up for me if they heard me being made fun of. i mean, im not saying everyone would, but anyone that i talk about stuff with is like 110% on my side (maybe thats just to my face but it still helps) so even if jon really does think im annoying and ugly and whatever else.....well i have a good group of friends that doesnt. and oh yeah, it DOES make him look like a really big asshole...but he apologized quite sincerely but since then has not made a single effort. i probably pissed him off. i just dont like being disliked. mleh.
Get away from me
This isn't gonna be easy
But I don't need you
Believe me
You got a piece of me
But it's just a little piece of me
And I don't need anyone
so lifes ok. works still great, my great escape. also ive hung out with david schilling a few times, thats always fun. yesterday zach called and was like hey, come up to allatoona and jump off the cliff. i never really do anything spontaneous or crazy, so that was an exciting change. even though i never hit the water right and my ass is suffering the consequences :) the price we pay for fun.
WARNING: THIS IS A POINTLESS RANT, IT WILL NOT BE COVERED ON THE FINAL
jon used to make me so happy. i mean, yeah he explained that i was too much like his mom and worried too much about stuff and thats why the relationship ended..but what i didnt even have a reason to tell him was that was a huge part of why i liked him, because he was so many things that i can never be, and when i was with him i felt a little less like a mom..and a little less worried because i knew he never was. so sure, i understand, the relationship didnt work. but then i found out all this stuff he was saying...about me being annoying and never wanting to call me, insulting my body etc etc...so i guess he couldnt handle being friends with me either. so i told him i never wanted to speak to him again because to be quite frank i dont need people in my life who think any lower than me than i do of myself. naturally, he denied the whole thing, said the person i was getting my information from was making it up, and then that the person i was getting it from said the same stuff and laughed about it with him (at the same time confirming that he did indeed make fun of me) so that hurt pretty bad. but then i was thinking about it, and it made me feel good to think how many people would stick up for me if they heard me being made fun of. i mean, im not saying everyone would, but anyone that i talk about stuff with is like 110% on my side (maybe thats just to my face but it still helps) so even if jon really does think im annoying and ugly and whatever else.....well i have a good group of friends that doesnt. and oh yeah, it DOES make him look like a really big asshole...but he apologized quite sincerely but since then has not made a single effort. i probably pissed him off. i just dont like being disliked. mleh.
Get away from me
This isn't gonna be easy
But I don't need you
Believe me
You got a piece of me
But it's just a little piece of me
And I don't need anyone