and one more day...i'm always taking a dive

[chelleunderwear]

i am getting super nostalgic about jump, little children. i just read the article in Flagpole...and its not super long or emotion-evoking, at least it prob shouldnt be. i just cannot believe we will never be able to look forward to getting lost in it. i mean, when people say "find your happy place" when you're really down, that place for me was a jlc concert, or the memory of it. and sometimes you just gotta have the real thing to keep the memories fresh. so what now? i mean, im not like saying they should keep touring just to give me an emotional kick in the butt every 6 months, but they are just so awesome. i let them fade in importance in my life, i guess i just burned them out..but listening again to magazine...why aren't they famous worldwide? why won't everyone in my life get to experience how great they are after this weekend? i wish i had my dad's video camera to sneak in. when i meet people after this weekend, and try to get close to them, i just think there is a part of me they won't ever really get...everyone that i've shared jump with, thats given them a chance, has gotten it and made them their own. jump should be everyone's. ok i just got really unnecessarily sentimental..but i think there are some out there who will get me on this. the show should be awesome.

If you will go and not return
Leave me some words of wisdom