206...1.5 years to go.
So I decided I should do a formal update of my livejouranl, I'm really lazy. So it's 2006..the thought that 2007 is one year away scares me and excites me at the same time. Excited because I'm just one step closer to graduating and going to college and stating the rest of my life. Scared because we all know that we won't keep all our friends after we graduate, scared because I don't want to lose him. I know this is still like 547.5 days away but you all know what I'm talking about. It was so easy to think about when we were freshman and sophmores but now we're halfway done with our junior year. All I have to say is it's going by really fast. There were a lot of things that happened in 2005 that I will never forget. Winning the Class A Pompon State Championship on February 13th...I'll never EVER forget that as long as I live. Winning the Western Horsemanship Championship award with my gorgeous one-of-a-kind-too-beautiful-to-look-at-my-love-of-my-life, horse. I would give anything to be able to ride him again. It always felt like that when I rode him all my problems went away and it was as if he knew what I was going through at that moment in time. I just wish I would have spent more time with him. He is without a doubt my bestfriend in the entire world and no one will ever be able to understand that.. In 2004 I met a boy. I want to spend the rest of my life with this boy and I love him with all my heart, that was a definate plus. I don't like hearing the old... "Oh here's to 2006 hopefully it won't be as shitty as 2005". Yes maybe people mean that but it's no good to celebrate the new year with the attitude that you wasted the year before. In my eyes you should always look to a better beginning. Of course, there are many new years resolutions I would definately like to accomplish but I am only human just like everyone else and I probably will not suceed with all of them. I hate how I curse all the time I hate how I fight with my bestfriends I hate how I realize how imporant it is for me to do good in school right now after I fail a test. I hate how I'm overdramatic and how I hurt the ones I love by my overeactions. But, I love how I pray everynight, how my bestfriends and I make up..no matter what, I love how my teachers understand and give me a second chance, and I love how he knows me so well and always forgives me. No matter how rediculous I acted the night before. I want to start the new year off with a good start, with hope to to make it even better as the year progesses. I want to be able to have a positive attitude whenever possible and I want to always be optimistic and happy. I want to be able to get enough sleep on the school nights so I am able to fully pay attention everyday in class...I want to be able to control my temper to my family and friends..and most of all I want to say when that clock strikes 12:00 December 31, 2006 that 2006 was a damn good year..to remember. Happy New Year everyone.
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can´t explain.
So would I be out of line if i said
I miss you.
*Incubus*
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can´t explain.
So would I be out of line if i said
I miss you.
*Incubus*