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So here I am back at Livejournal after cheating on it with Myspace for long. Thing is I have way to much on my mind to keep it all in.
Lately I have been so caught up in life and just having fun, that I have been pushing everything that was on my mind away, and now I am here, stressed, annoyed irritated, at nobody except for myself. The stress of school and work is definitly starting to get to me. I feel like I have no time for myself or that their are not enough hours in the day. I feel like I have so many people to hang out with and not enough time to. I break plans like its nothing cause I usually find myself exhausted and stressed and the only thing I ever want to do is lay in bed all day and sleep. I have become extremely lazy which is causing other bad habbits to concure. I am getting lazy when it comes to school and homework and I haven't done any physical activity in forever. I keep telling myself I will set an hour aside everyday to at least do some running or what not, but truth is I don't even have an hour to spare, or I find myself procastinating to much.
Then their is friends and boys. I have treated my friends like shit lately and for that I feel extremely bad. I find it easier to take things out on the people closest to me rather than anyone else. I know it's not right and thats something I need to change. I just hope they all remember that I love them very much. I think I try so hard to be a perfect friend that it becomes so draining and after a while I give up and get annoyed and then take it out on them, who knows im a very complex person sometimes and I dont even understand myself most of the time. Then their is boys, or should I say BOY cause I only like one. I am not going to get into detail their, but I like him alot and hopefully something good will come out of this, but so far things have been good. Enough said.
I have just been finding myself breaking down so easy. If someone says something and I take it the wrong way, I feel myself wanting to break down and cry. But people see this image of me of being a strong person and being able to handle conflict easily, thing is, I cry all the time because I'm not that strong at all. Yes its easy for me to pretend like I dont care, but truth is it tears me apart inside. But thats pretty much it. So if I accidently snap at you, please dont take it personally cause I am on the verge of breaking down at any second. It will pass though...
Lately I have been so caught up in life and just having fun, that I have been pushing everything that was on my mind away, and now I am here, stressed, annoyed irritated, at nobody except for myself. The stress of school and work is definitly starting to get to me. I feel like I have no time for myself or that their are not enough hours in the day. I feel like I have so many people to hang out with and not enough time to. I break plans like its nothing cause I usually find myself exhausted and stressed and the only thing I ever want to do is lay in bed all day and sleep. I have become extremely lazy which is causing other bad habbits to concure. I am getting lazy when it comes to school and homework and I haven't done any physical activity in forever. I keep telling myself I will set an hour aside everyday to at least do some running or what not, but truth is I don't even have an hour to spare, or I find myself procastinating to much.
Then their is friends and boys. I have treated my friends like shit lately and for that I feel extremely bad. I find it easier to take things out on the people closest to me rather than anyone else. I know it's not right and thats something I need to change. I just hope they all remember that I love them very much. I think I try so hard to be a perfect friend that it becomes so draining and after a while I give up and get annoyed and then take it out on them, who knows im a very complex person sometimes and I dont even understand myself most of the time. Then their is boys, or should I say BOY cause I only like one. I am not going to get into detail their, but I like him alot and hopefully something good will come out of this, but so far things have been good. Enough said.
I have just been finding myself breaking down so easy. If someone says something and I take it the wrong way, I feel myself wanting to break down and cry. But people see this image of me of being a strong person and being able to handle conflict easily, thing is, I cry all the time because I'm not that strong at all. Yes its easy for me to pretend like I dont care, but truth is it tears me apart inside. But thats pretty much it. So if I accidently snap at you, please dont take it personally cause I am on the verge of breaking down at any second. It will pass though...