With every high there is a low...
SO, as soon as one part of your life gets going well, another part of it falls apart. My Life is in 3 parts. The romance aspect (me & cait) which is wonderful, thanks for asking. WE celebrated 2 years and a couple of months obn the 9th by her taking me to hibachi @ Saki's then to see Happy Feet. THe family part is okay. I am worried about a few people, mainly my little "sister" Jenny. I hope she is doing okay. I am still very very proud of my daddy. He has gone 3 days without a cigar. I am beyond ecstatic about this. You should be too. However, the one part of my life that has fallen to pieces is college. I got my letter yesterday telling me that out of the 8 grand that college costs I will be awarded 2,500, and I have to maintain a 3.0 GpA. I was least to say disappointed. I expected to get something, more. Mom & dad are proud of me, but I let myself down. I had my hopes set so high that, I forgot... I have never been really good at anything. I am embarrassed that I am only mediocre at everything and it fills me with doubt that I won't be able to ever achieve any goal I set my mind to. I have wanted to get a full ride to college before I ever even knew my major, or my school. I hsve worked towards it maintaining honor roll & principal's list and taking harder classes and where does it get me, 1/3 of the way there! I am just so disgusted with myself, the interview keeps replaying in my mind, analyzing every syllable and seeing what i should and should not have said. Now I see it clearly, I should have not done this I should have not said this. and now its too late. I am going to try for hearin, but again. how can i prove to them that I am a leader? they won't seen enough of me in one weekend to understand, who I am. and i know i wont qualify for grants & mtag, mom & dad make too much $. dispair
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Shell
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Shell