Woulds
I found myself unable to be silent tonight for some strange reason so I just started writing and this is what came out. Comments are appreciated.
~Woulds~
If I ever said what I wanted to say, I would be vomiting from my mouth all day and all night
If I ever told you what you make me do while I am dreaming endlessly, while I am waking
You would never believe me in my sincerity since my mood is wild
When I told you that were my hero carrying me out of my sorrow and wretchedness
You would laugh at me and then walk away, slowly and looking at me strangely as if I were a pigeon
I never had wings so I couldn't fly like the women you see who resemble angels
I stayed low to the ground with my head in my hands, crying my anguish into the world
The tears dripped dropped thoughtfully to the ground until they were no more and there was a puddle that I called my world
The puddle moved endlessly into the sea of regret I kept hidden amongst the reeds called guilt
Did you ever see my defenses? They weren't much, were they?
My blockades crumbled before the onslaught of your smiling blue eyes
Those eyes tore me to pieces with but a few words and a gesture
Walking now makes each step a painful reminder of the time when I was blissfully unaware of your existence
Can I never go back to those days? Can I never recall my steadfastness and security?
Unable to trust myself and you, I constantly reach out for nothing is there
I continue onward, reaching, and I trot in circles
There is nothing beneath me
Come to me one day, shining with glorious redemption
Tell me the tales of your mirth and fantasy
I will be whatever you ask of me, great prince of longitude
Take me to the beyond I can see behind your shoulders
It calls and I answer listlessly, unheard yet still
~Woulds~
If I ever said what I wanted to say, I would be vomiting from my mouth all day and all night
If I ever told you what you make me do while I am dreaming endlessly, while I am waking
You would never believe me in my sincerity since my mood is wild
When I told you that were my hero carrying me out of my sorrow and wretchedness
You would laugh at me and then walk away, slowly and looking at me strangely as if I were a pigeon
I never had wings so I couldn't fly like the women you see who resemble angels
I stayed low to the ground with my head in my hands, crying my anguish into the world
The tears dripped dropped thoughtfully to the ground until they were no more and there was a puddle that I called my world
The puddle moved endlessly into the sea of regret I kept hidden amongst the reeds called guilt
Did you ever see my defenses? They weren't much, were they?
My blockades crumbled before the onslaught of your smiling blue eyes
Those eyes tore me to pieces with but a few words and a gesture
Walking now makes each step a painful reminder of the time when I was blissfully unaware of your existence
Can I never go back to those days? Can I never recall my steadfastness and security?
Unable to trust myself and you, I constantly reach out for nothing is there
I continue onward, reaching, and I trot in circles
There is nothing beneath me
Come to me one day, shining with glorious redemption
Tell me the tales of your mirth and fantasy
I will be whatever you ask of me, great prince of longitude
Take me to the beyond I can see behind your shoulders
It calls and I answer listlessly, unheard yet still