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ahh so I'm back to babysitting the half siblings this summer...I get paid for sitting around the house while they play with their little friends, but it's oh sooo incredibly boring.
I know I've emphasized countless times how I can't wait to leave, so I won't again. As I've been doing nothing for pretty much the entire day, I've been getting to the thinking cap, the reflective annoying one. I wish I was more satisfied with high school and prom and graduation and everything. It was just, okay, it happened, what's next? I need more chances to prove myself. I received a much needed and long overdue reality check the other day (something I already kinda new but it's different hearing it from someone else) and just what the fuck have I been thinking? aldfa;dfa;f I'm retarded x 3043094. I'm embarassed, and I that's why I need more chances to prove I'm done with that silly(stupid) business.
Ok see so now I'm torn between wanting to get he hell out of here and wanting more time to fix things.
I HATE hate hate how I've gotten distant with a few people. There are a few who I felt I was realllly good friends with not too too long ago, and now we're still freinds, but not as close. I miss it like crazy. Yes, people grow apart gradually, and I've gotten closer to some different people, but I miss the old times. ahh fuck nostalgia, it's not even that long ago.
I'm also not diggin' how I have some things to say to certain people, but I won't cause it'll be too awkward and overdue.
It's about time for me to leave the confines of a household. laterrrrr
I know I've emphasized countless times how I can't wait to leave, so I won't again. As I've been doing nothing for pretty much the entire day, I've been getting to the thinking cap, the reflective annoying one. I wish I was more satisfied with high school and prom and graduation and everything. It was just, okay, it happened, what's next? I need more chances to prove myself. I received a much needed and long overdue reality check the other day (something I already kinda new but it's different hearing it from someone else) and just what the fuck have I been thinking? aldfa;dfa;f I'm retarded x 3043094. I'm embarassed, and I that's why I need more chances to prove I'm done with that silly(stupid) business.
Ok see so now I'm torn between wanting to get he hell out of here and wanting more time to fix things.
I HATE hate hate how I've gotten distant with a few people. There are a few who I felt I was realllly good friends with not too too long ago, and now we're still freinds, but not as close. I miss it like crazy. Yes, people grow apart gradually, and I've gotten closer to some different people, but I miss the old times. ahh fuck nostalgia, it's not even that long ago.
I'm also not diggin' how I have some things to say to certain people, but I won't cause it'll be too awkward and overdue.
It's about time for me to leave the confines of a household. laterrrrr