Just one of those days?!?
Have you ever just been driving and a song comes on radio or your just thinking and you wonder if you would have done this or done that how much it would change things that are messed up or just plain out confusing. Just if you would have said that one thing maybe you 2 would be friends or maybe you 2 would be going out by now. Its not like you regret not doing it at all your happy with the way things are going but you wonder if i would have said that one thing maybe I would be happier with him. Then you wonder when you look and think back on things you wonder what the fuck was i on at the time that was some crazy shit. Wonder why would i have ever trust him, I should have listened to my friends. Just things like that, or simply pick up your cell phone and call that one friend that you havent talked to in months the one friend that has been there for you for everything and just to say to him I miss you and I miss having you in my life. And the whole reason you 2 quit talking was because he came out with his feelings saying that he likes you and wants to be with you but you were to afraid to look him in the eyes and say I just rather be friends. But deep down you know for some reason that you 2 were meant to be together. Just looking back at all the guys you thought you liked or thought they liked you, and all you had to do was open your eyes to realize that one person is right in front of you. I dont know I guess I am going thru one of those days were you just think bout everything, and sometimes guess you wish you had that one guy that you know will be there for you know matter what. Sometimes you wish you could change that one person to be the person you want them to be but they have to change for themselves. I know in my heart there is one person I would love to change and I know for a fact he has to be willing to change himself but he knows I will be there with him no matter what. Because family stays together and in the long when your friends arent there you will always have your family. I do believe things do happen for a reason and there is no reason to have regrets in life at all because if you live on the regrets then you are truly not happy in life with yourself and you wont be able to find the one you want til you are actually happy with yourself. So i am not saying I regret the things that I have done but yet i have learned from them, and grown to be happy with myself....But there are the time where I wonder bout things if i would have done them differently only in some situtations. I dont know maybe with everything that has happened this past week it just makes me realize how lucky I am to where I am, and life is to short to worry bout the little things because you never know when your going to taken from it. I mean look how many ppl have been taken away by car wrecks, cancer, and etc. I know thru personal experience so I am living my life up to the fullest because you never know when things can change. but the ones we have lost they will forever always be in our hearts.