when was the last time I fell asleep sober

[chekerdead]

these dreams these dreams these fucking dreams
they make me thrash
they make me scream
they make me think I've lost it all
when in fact it all is gone
I see these faces, so familiar
I lose myself inside this horror show

and I even avoid you in my dreams
yet somehow I cry to and hug the others

its been so long why do I see this so clearly

I drink, smoke, and shoot away these dreams
these nightmares of loss
and last night I did not

They came raging back into the forefront of my mind

I miss my old life and the people that cared
and I am so scared

so sad for no reason
depressed husk