eventful day
Oh I am going to be so poor by the end of the month I can just feel it! It's really depressing when you get into classes like photography and realize that your going to spend alot of money on stuff like paper and film and all that other grand stuff just becuase you have to for a decent grade. Yeah! I need to get a camera also because I found out that the camera I have isn't the right kind b/c it's automatic, with no manual setting. Blah! Oh well. I did go to Wal-mart today and got lots of food, friggin awesome, and a printer via daddy. Thank god mom has been guilt tripping him alot lately b/c of the no vehicle situation. Maybe by my junior year I will have a vehicle. You really take forgraten not having one. So any way I am about to hit the books for a little bit more. I kind of got bombarded when I got off the elevator by my residents, which was a really good thing. I don't know why but when we were riding back in the car from wal-mart I came horribly close to crying, like the tears were starting to well up in my eyes. I just did what I normally do and held them back. In just a matter of days I can rightfully let it all go I know. Closer will be sooo nice. See the way I figure it is like this. If he comes back and i don't hear anything from him then it means that he has completely forgotten about me and then I have nothing to worry about. Or if he comes back and calls me and says sorry but can we be friends also a good thing. bur what I really worry about is if he comes back and says ... (it hurts to think about it or even type it) I miss you, I need you, lets make it work. The only reason I don't want to think about that is b/c I know that it won't happen. But oh well who care right. I mean heck, it's not like I don't have back up boys (well John doesn't count as a boy since he is 26... but it was only one date and maybe another this weekend). Well over and out...