okay.. so this is whats up.. in a nutshell.. ranover.
I'll try to make this understandable.. but fear ranting/rambling will confuse.
Okay. SO. By my actions, hanging out with friends, not exactly keeping up with all my chores and whatnot, I had the interwebs taken away from me. And I shrugged it off. I checked my myspace only when I hung out with friends, and even then, I didn't care too much. The only thing I missed was the contact ability that the i-webs gave me with my friends.
So I was really outta the loop with a lot of people. But you know, it happens.
Now I'm back on. And talking to everyone, filling everyone in one the bunches of nothing thats happened to me over these last two months.
But, I'll fill everyone in on the more detailed, personal parts of my life, and basic, general thoughts in my head.
My love life - or lack of:
Okay.. lets see. I liked Calvin for a second. Still kinda like Spencer. Rather detest Adam Saunders (he turned out to be a DICK!). And still have a huge liking of Kenneth Miller. I have small 'crushes' on someother people, but they're going nowhere, I think. So they matter not.
I haven't had a relationship since March, and don't think I'll have one for a while yet. I think it'll just confuse my situations further anyway. And even though I'd like to be in a relationship, I know it's not what I need.
My thoughts:
I'm thoroughly pissed with my parents want of me. They want me to rid myself of all my 'new' friends, and make newer, better, Christian Conservative ones. Now. I don't have a hate or even Christian Conservative types, but the simple fact that that is the only kind of person my parents deem 'better' annoys me. Makes me feel like crap.
And any time I try defending my friends, or whatev, my parents beat me/them down even more. Gay people, Democrats, Liberals, and the like are highly frowned upon by my parents, and a good portion of my friends are one or the other, OR not even that, but still not up to my parents standards.
They want me to forget about Gina, Emily, Karen, Morgan, Tiff, Ted, Spencer, Ben, Hunter, Kirk, Kim, Brit and a bunch of other friends, just because they think by not talking to/hanging out with these people will prevent me from thinking about moving away.
And ya know. Seattle isn't horrible. Karen's invited me to move down to Moscow, ID with her. Kim invited me to move in with her and her son in Chico, WA. Morgan and Tiff have invited me to move in with them wherever it is they'll move intogether at.
Morgan and Tiff might not work out for what I want in the long run.. and while I love those two dearly, Seattle IS where I want to be. So Gina might as well have me to herself.. er.. with Em too. ^_^ (Em and Gina are another two who are amazing. And amazing is just the word I use by default because I've not come up with a better word.. I love them so much! <3 )
Karen and I would make GREAT roomies. And Moscow could work in the longrun for me. But it depends on where I'm at by the time she moves down there. Karen's so freaking awesome-tastic!
I want so much right now, but don't seem motivated.
but that could just be right this second. I'm tired. And listening to somber musics.
What I need.
is.
help.
hmmph. I just depressed myself.
*shakes head* Urm. I miss everyone.
I want to be out of this place.
The sooner I'm out of here, the sooner I'll be me more, the sooner I'll figure me out better, the sooner I'll know.