Southern accents are hot if you actually happen to also be smart..
I keep reassuring myself I'm wanted in this world. People love me. Are happy because I'm here. But I can't help but feeling so alone.
Me, I'm currently 'dating' Adam. It's a 'go nowhere, I should end it now' relationship.
I love Kenneth. He loves me. But he's moving to Boston. There in Boston, while auditioning to get into the Boston Conservatory, visited his good friend Krystle, whom whilst going to whichever school SHE goes to, has made great friends with an Adam who, as it turns out, is now dating Kenneth. Kenneth told me last night. I'm not upset really. A little jealous that I haven't had the chance to do anything about it he and I. But whatev.
So. To clarify. I'm dating an Adam, and so is Kenneth. Kenneth and I love eachother and have told one another this. (Don't question us.. we think it's love.. therefore it must be. lol.)
I feel happy for Kenneth. I'm glad he's found someone to actually be with. I feel a little less stressed. Like a weight has been lifted off me. The expectations Ken had for me to go see him are gone (but still there.)
I am going to see him. Hang out a lil.
Anyway. I kinda realized I have feelings for a new Adam. He used to live here in Priest River.. moved to Colorado. And now he's moving to Seattle.. he's going to be going to Cornish! Excites me, it does. As I plan on moving to Seattle.. and going to Cornish. I just need to do it to do it. It's a matter of will power at this point. Something I have yet to channel.
Anyway. I'm letting relationship drama be in the fore-front of my mind. It's just weird.
I want to be in a relationship that isn't moving too quickly.
*sigh*
4 Month Goal List:
Step 1. Get a job
Step 2. Get a car
Step 3. Move out
Step 4. Move to Seattle
Step 5. Get a grant, and into Cornish*
(*= Iffy.. but do-able? maybe.)
I'm ready for the next phase. I just have to stop waiting for it, and meet it half way.
~JC
Me, I'm currently 'dating' Adam. It's a 'go nowhere, I should end it now' relationship.
I love Kenneth. He loves me. But he's moving to Boston. There in Boston, while auditioning to get into the Boston Conservatory, visited his good friend Krystle, whom whilst going to whichever school SHE goes to, has made great friends with an Adam who, as it turns out, is now dating Kenneth. Kenneth told me last night. I'm not upset really. A little jealous that I haven't had the chance to do anything about it he and I. But whatev.
So. To clarify. I'm dating an Adam, and so is Kenneth. Kenneth and I love eachother and have told one another this. (Don't question us.. we think it's love.. therefore it must be. lol.)
I feel happy for Kenneth. I'm glad he's found someone to actually be with. I feel a little less stressed. Like a weight has been lifted off me. The expectations Ken had for me to go see him are gone (but still there.)
I am going to see him. Hang out a lil.
Anyway. I kinda realized I have feelings for a new Adam. He used to live here in Priest River.. moved to Colorado. And now he's moving to Seattle.. he's going to be going to Cornish! Excites me, it does. As I plan on moving to Seattle.. and going to Cornish. I just need to do it to do it. It's a matter of will power at this point. Something I have yet to channel.
Anyway. I'm letting relationship drama be in the fore-front of my mind. It's just weird.
I want to be in a relationship that isn't moving too quickly.
*sigh*
4 Month Goal List:
Step 1. Get a job
Step 2. Get a car
Step 3. Move out
Step 4. Move to Seattle
Step 5. Get a grant, and into Cornish*
(*= Iffy.. but do-able? maybe.)
I'm ready for the next phase. I just have to stop waiting for it, and meet it half way.
~JC