turmoil and water
starting night-before-last, i've been having the nothing-depression... where i don't really feel much of anything, but really want to cry. i think it has a fair bit to do with stagnation and un-motivation. last night it almost took me over and i pulled out the colored pencils in an effort to get some of the bad out- was sitting there staring at the pencilpack trying to figure out how to draw rain, and drew turned around and asked what's wrong... seeing the expression on my face, he rolled his chair over and put his arms around me and asked me if i was going to cry. i replied, "probably." and was weepy for about thirty seconds, but he kept looking at me, and when i asked, he agreed that yes, staring at me so i couldn't cry was kindof the plan. heh. so he sat there and hugged me and looked at me until i demanded that he go back to what he was doing.
and then i started a drawing. it looks good so far. and i felt so much better afterward. i need to remember that drawing is such effective therapy.
in other news, i got four more fillings today. these ones hurt- one was a really big hole in the side of a top back molar, extending almost up to the gumline, and deep enough to have started twinge-ing the nerve. but supposedly, i am now cavity-free. ...for the moment. exciting, the idea of not having to avoid certain parts of my mouth with certain types of food. i just hope that big one is covered completely (it feels like there might be a little gap in the back, but we'll see, i guess). god, i wish my teeth didn't suck.
and then i started a drawing. it looks good so far. and i felt so much better afterward. i need to remember that drawing is such effective therapy.
in other news, i got four more fillings today. these ones hurt- one was a really big hole in the side of a top back molar, extending almost up to the gumline, and deep enough to have started twinge-ing the nerve. but supposedly, i am now cavity-free. ...for the moment. exciting, the idea of not having to avoid certain parts of my mouth with certain types of food. i just hope that big one is covered completely (it feels like there might be a little gap in the back, but we'll see, i guess). god, i wish my teeth didn't suck.