Sep 06, 2004 21:26
So I went to Paula's house yesterday. I need some time to chill out... and get away from my family for a bit. So I stayed the night at her house. They talked to me and helped me out. I don't know what I am going to do anymore. I feel so much better when I am there then when I am at home.
And when my family tells them to keep me... it hurts me to hear them say that. I'm not wanted, and I know it. it hurts me inside, when my brother and sister get whatever they want and I get nothing. Everything is taken out on me... like i'm trash. I don't get along with anybody... so I don't see why I'm here... sometimes I just wanna die. My brother and sister probably want it. I don't know what I am going to do because I'm hurting the people that I love with what I am doing now. I need something new to do. It kills me to keep my feelings inside but it also kills me to to tell my feelings out too...
I need something to do...
I'm hanging out with Allen tomorrow after school. Some other people are comming too...
There is a swim meet tomorrow it's against Hazel Park at Berkley, it's also at 6:30 come cheer us on...
I am going to go now...
Lotz of love...
.:S-Woz:.