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I made a pretty fukt up assumption today.. I received a message on the guest book for my web page that said my site sucked and my gf was ugly... I assumed it was my ex gf fukn with me.. I dont know why.. I fukt up.. Ive just had a bad day.. I dont know how its been so bad. I got the house we wanted.. We're movin in this week in 3 days.. Everything was doin all good.. But part of me has just been so spiteful and bitchy. I apologize.. You know who you are. This doesnt make me childish.. Like Ive said numerous times now, I have changed.. I have picked up my life.. Look at it.. Study the things Im doing now and tell me I havent grown up some.. I cant say Ive done a complete 180 but I can say Im working on it...Change doesnt just happen with a snap of the fingers. I figured out who did leave that nasty ass note on my journal. It was this little fuk Ive known for a while now..... A girl I thought was my friend.. Wanna hear about childish... I couldnt give her a ride to work one morning so she leaves shit like that on my web page and then tells me she talks to my ex online since we've been broken up and said my ex had her gf do it.. I guess she just wanted to start drama.. Of course.. And I believed her cause Ive known her so long and she had never done me wrong before.. I guess this was her idea of revenge.. Well ha, its people like her that need to read my bottom lip.. hahahaa.. I love this new tattoo.. Its great... Just throw out the bottom pout lip when someone pisses me off and that way I dont waste my breath...lol.. Anywayz..so yea, I made a mistake.. I can admit that and Im sorry. Ive grown up that much.. YOU know for a fact Im not the type to say sorry... I hate the word itself.. Well at least I DID hate it.. Now I realize when I make a mistake, especially when it affects someone else thas innocent, it calls for a sincere apology.. So what better way to say sorry than post it on my journal that EVERYONE that I know reads daily.. Im sorry girl.. I really am.. Im not askin for forgiveness.. Just want you to know Im sorry. Ive still got a lot to learn about true friends.. You just gotta try to see it through my eyes.. You told me youd call me back and never did, you havent checked to see if Im alive like you said you would.. All contact finally ended.. then I get that note on my page and get told it was from you... See what I mean tho? Im sorry ..for real..
Well, thats about all I have to say.. lol.. I feel like a total ass now but whatever..
So yea, we got our house.. we start movin shit in on Wednesday afternoon. Our dads are gonna come by and see what all they can help with too.. YAY! Its phatti! I wish all of you could see it... We are having a house warming party in 2 weeks tho.. I'll make sure its on a weekend in case any of you would like to come join us.. Just let me know if you need an invitation..
Welp, Im outtie.. Gotta call people and spread the good news.. One love to all..
Well, thats about all I have to say.. lol.. I feel like a total ass now but whatever..
So yea, we got our house.. we start movin shit in on Wednesday afternoon. Our dads are gonna come by and see what all they can help with too.. YAY! Its phatti! I wish all of you could see it... We are having a house warming party in 2 weeks tho.. I'll make sure its on a weekend in case any of you would like to come join us.. Just let me know if you need an invitation..
Welp, Im outtie.. Gotta call people and spread the good news.. One love to all..