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i'm o so very annoyied.
my personality is great as people say, i have a clean face-no zits/pimples, i workout a little bit (run, XC, chins ups and mainly DDR), i'm nice to everyone or those that are semi-nice to me. yet even with all these things i still am hated my half the school. nor have i had a REAL girlfriend yet.
i just don't get it. do i HAVE to be trendy to be appericated? it may be the fact that i have david allen as my stalker, or that i have evan calling and acting immature everytime i'm around people. but still, i feel that i have the whole damn world pressuring me. do this, whats this?, how do i do this, do that, all with 2 subjects of HW everyday, a diet to maintain, and still find time for fun. if i had someone to help me out or hang out more with me (other than lauren/justin to leech on to all the time) i may feel a little more esteemed about myself. i'm stress, and i feel like a perfectionist. i want straight A's, what i get? B average. if i want to have some sort of armstrengh, i try. what i get: flimsy fat in my arms. few things ever happen to go my way. and its sooooo damn annoying to alway help others and have nothing back in return.
i'm gonna stop now cuz i'll be littering everyones friends page. IM me for a full story.
my personality is great as people say, i have a clean face-no zits/pimples, i workout a little bit (run, XC, chins ups and mainly DDR), i'm nice to everyone or those that are semi-nice to me. yet even with all these things i still am hated my half the school. nor have i had a REAL girlfriend yet.
i just don't get it. do i HAVE to be trendy to be appericated? it may be the fact that i have david allen as my stalker, or that i have evan calling and acting immature everytime i'm around people. but still, i feel that i have the whole damn world pressuring me. do this, whats this?, how do i do this, do that, all with 2 subjects of HW everyday, a diet to maintain, and still find time for fun. if i had someone to help me out or hang out more with me (other than lauren/justin to leech on to all the time) i may feel a little more esteemed about myself. i'm stress, and i feel like a perfectionist. i want straight A's, what i get? B average. if i want to have some sort of armstrengh, i try. what i get: flimsy fat in my arms. few things ever happen to go my way. and its sooooo damn annoying to alway help others and have nothing back in return.
i'm gonna stop now cuz i'll be littering everyones friends page. IM me for a full story.