It's not me, it's you...
Its not you, it's me
That's my motto for life, constantly devaluing myself and my own needs and boundaries based on what you deem to be acceptable, what sits neatly tucked away in your conscience. How much are you really looking for the wellbeing of others instead of waiting for the desperate to knock on your perfectly polished door? Easily done ( Read more... )
Ok, so warning for potential brain fuck here...
The point if this post is to say that signs are not exclusive to emotion.
I do understand that I don't show emotion, however everything about my actions suggest a problem...
The difference is people don't look for a problem unless it impacts them. If I cry you can't deny I'm sad/hurt (even though so many times I have seen people fake it)... But through all the BIG changes in my actions and behaviour, when it's out of character and obvious such as the things I describe above, no one steps in... Because unless it's in their face or denying it makes them the bad person, it's easy to ignore then blame me for not saying something.
My actions were SCREAMING it... But it is only addressed when it impacts on them, and then it's my fault for not crying.
That's why you and I are close. We can both read actions just as intently as we can emotions, if anything it makes more sense to us. I know you, I don't need to see your tears to know wh been you are hurting. Your actions, who you are, they tell me.
Make sense?
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That really wasn't a brain fuck. It feels right, so I think I know what you mean. Like a puzzle piece that easily and satisfyingly fits.
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