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hello livejournal.
it's kinda hard for me to keep up with you since facebook has become so addictive. sorry about that.
anyhoo i am sick and cramping at the same time and it sucks.
i've been feeling like i'm really bloated and fat lately. i eat very little and feel bloated. but if i dont eat at all i feel bloated too. i dont quite get it. sometimes i get up and take one bite of my breakfast and my body says "okay you're full". ONE FUCKING BITE. and i'm hungry. but i feel like that one bite was a whole fucking meal. something is going on but i dont really understand.
i put food in my mouth and i get a gag reflex sometimes. ANYTHING. even if it's something i like or have been craving. i spat out a bite of carrot cake today. IT'S FUCKING CAKE WHY AM I SPITTING IT OUT IN THE TRASH????
forcing myself to eat is strange and it's even more strange when the amount is so small. is it cause i eat dinner at 9pm sometimes maybe? i go to bed at midnight most nights so that shouldn't be much of a problem for the whole metabolism thing.
i really dont know what's wrong with me.
it's kinda hard for me to keep up with you since facebook has become so addictive. sorry about that.
anyhoo i am sick and cramping at the same time and it sucks.
i've been feeling like i'm really bloated and fat lately. i eat very little and feel bloated. but if i dont eat at all i feel bloated too. i dont quite get it. sometimes i get up and take one bite of my breakfast and my body says "okay you're full". ONE FUCKING BITE. and i'm hungry. but i feel like that one bite was a whole fucking meal. something is going on but i dont really understand.
i put food in my mouth and i get a gag reflex sometimes. ANYTHING. even if it's something i like or have been craving. i spat out a bite of carrot cake today. IT'S FUCKING CAKE WHY AM I SPITTING IT OUT IN THE TRASH????
forcing myself to eat is strange and it's even more strange when the amount is so small. is it cause i eat dinner at 9pm sometimes maybe? i go to bed at midnight most nights so that shouldn't be much of a problem for the whole metabolism thing.
i really dont know what's wrong with me.