Very Confused
Not long ago in my high school days, I watched a girl from so far away. But everytime she passed me by, I turned my head away and quietly sighed. And when she walked by her hair would dance, a secret tango that only I could understand, and if she asked for the time of day, I'd look her in the eyes and quietly say:
Kristina, Kristina,
Do you have any clue who I am? (hell no)
So listen up because I'll tell you once and I'll explain myself the best that I can.
Kristina, Kristina,
You don't know me so I'll have to persist.
I'm kind of shy so don't wonder why
Kristina she don't know I exist.
-Catch 22
That was on Ally's cousin's away message. I don't think it means anything, but its weird. We just saw him last night, but its not like we were flirting or anything b/c we were all just having a generally bad time- its probably just a coincidence, I mean, its not even the same spelling of my name. GRRRRRRRRRR I just told myself that I didn't like him anymore and now I'm confused b/c thats just damn weird. As for last night...
Movie night failed. We didn't have an Izzy. We were going to do it anyways. Everyone got there and we started trying to tape the first scene but a certain 2 people, who I will call Chris squared (they were both Chris- one being Ally's cousin, the other being Rooney), kept on fighting. Ally's cousin was just joking and shit, but Rooney was being a jackass. They kept on throwing things at eachother (it was in the script- but then it got out of hand) Ally and me ended up getting hit w/shit. Now I have a gash on my elbow and its black and blue. To say the least, we were not very happy. Then we went into the other room and they were fighting. Ally's cousin had Rooney's wrists and Rooney was trying to bend his wrist down to stab Ally's cousin w/ a key or something. Then I got in the middle b/c I was afraid he was going to do something stupid and actually stab him with it. It was kinda scary. He didn't like that Ally's cousin was "emo". Ally's cousin was later offended when we told him that the other Chris said he was emo. Rooney threw a fit and sulked in Ally's house for a while before she tried to talk to him and ended up telling him that maybe he should just go home. We had already given up on the movie at this point. The rest of the night we kinda just sat around. Ally's cousin played Nika's mini-guitar a little bit. Me and Ally were both pretty upset about things- it was just weird. I can't even explain everything that went on. When I went home I lit candles in my room and just layed on my body pillow on the floor listening to music. It was very relaxing. I went to sleep at midnight and got up at 2 in the afternoon today. It was very nice. I decided today that I didn't like Ally's cousin anymore. I'm not sure why, but thats what I decided. But then that away message just confused me, but I'm suuuure its probably just a coincidence. He wouldn't like me. I just wished the movie would've worked out. Ally and I worked reallly hard on it. After last night we even cancelled the dinner we had planned for today. Ally's cousin was supposed to be sleeping at her house but he went home last night instead, the other Chris was being a jerk and had a concert anyway and so it was basically just me, Ally, Kristie and Dave left. Oh, and on top of it, Dave broke my belt. It made me reallly mad, but I couldn't say anything because Dave gets upset. Well ya know what, I WAS UPSET. But no, we can't upset Dave because he's special. "Special" alright. It was my new belt!!! I've only wore it once!!! DAMN HIM.
No, I don't like Ally's cousin. I'm going to take me time in which I'm not going to like anyone. I'm just going to be happy being me because thats the way it should be. I don't need a guy. I've yet to find one thats anywhere near worth my time. I wish I'd just stay not liking someone though. I don't know why I always feel the need to like someone- especially when its always someone thats really not that special. I thought Ally's cousin was special though. I just don't know anymore.
Kristina, Kristina,
Do you have any clue who I am? (hell no)
So listen up because I'll tell you once and I'll explain myself the best that I can.
Kristina, Kristina,
You don't know me so I'll have to persist.
I'm kind of shy so don't wonder why
Kristina she don't know I exist.
-Catch 22
That was on Ally's cousin's away message. I don't think it means anything, but its weird. We just saw him last night, but its not like we were flirting or anything b/c we were all just having a generally bad time- its probably just a coincidence, I mean, its not even the same spelling of my name. GRRRRRRRRRR I just told myself that I didn't like him anymore and now I'm confused b/c thats just damn weird. As for last night...
Movie night failed. We didn't have an Izzy. We were going to do it anyways. Everyone got there and we started trying to tape the first scene but a certain 2 people, who I will call Chris squared (they were both Chris- one being Ally's cousin, the other being Rooney), kept on fighting. Ally's cousin was just joking and shit, but Rooney was being a jackass. They kept on throwing things at eachother (it was in the script- but then it got out of hand) Ally and me ended up getting hit w/shit. Now I have a gash on my elbow and its black and blue. To say the least, we were not very happy. Then we went into the other room and they were fighting. Ally's cousin had Rooney's wrists and Rooney was trying to bend his wrist down to stab Ally's cousin w/ a key or something. Then I got in the middle b/c I was afraid he was going to do something stupid and actually stab him with it. It was kinda scary. He didn't like that Ally's cousin was "emo". Ally's cousin was later offended when we told him that the other Chris said he was emo. Rooney threw a fit and sulked in Ally's house for a while before she tried to talk to him and ended up telling him that maybe he should just go home. We had already given up on the movie at this point. The rest of the night we kinda just sat around. Ally's cousin played Nika's mini-guitar a little bit. Me and Ally were both pretty upset about things- it was just weird. I can't even explain everything that went on. When I went home I lit candles in my room and just layed on my body pillow on the floor listening to music. It was very relaxing. I went to sleep at midnight and got up at 2 in the afternoon today. It was very nice. I decided today that I didn't like Ally's cousin anymore. I'm not sure why, but thats what I decided. But then that away message just confused me, but I'm suuuure its probably just a coincidence. He wouldn't like me. I just wished the movie would've worked out. Ally and I worked reallly hard on it. After last night we even cancelled the dinner we had planned for today. Ally's cousin was supposed to be sleeping at her house but he went home last night instead, the other Chris was being a jerk and had a concert anyway and so it was basically just me, Ally, Kristie and Dave left. Oh, and on top of it, Dave broke my belt. It made me reallly mad, but I couldn't say anything because Dave gets upset. Well ya know what, I WAS UPSET. But no, we can't upset Dave because he's special. "Special" alright. It was my new belt!!! I've only wore it once!!! DAMN HIM.
No, I don't like Ally's cousin. I'm going to take me time in which I'm not going to like anyone. I'm just going to be happy being me because thats the way it should be. I don't need a guy. I've yet to find one thats anywhere near worth my time. I wish I'd just stay not liking someone though. I don't know why I always feel the need to like someone- especially when its always someone thats really not that special. I thought Ally's cousin was special though. I just don't know anymore.