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its nights like these, when i get mad at myself because i dont choose the right friends.
kristen is my best friend, and has been for 2 1/2 years now. she was the main person who actually was there for me when my dad died, and we became really close. her mom has parkinsons disease, and her parents divorced a while ago. her dad started dating, and he got his girlfriend pregnant and they are engaged now. anyway, kristen hated the baby - she was jealous - she actually wanted it to die. her dad now lives in salem most of the time, 30-45 minutes away. he's a doctor and makes good money, and since she has so much anger towards her dad, she makes him buy all the clothes she'd ever want [keep in mind she pretty much only shops at abercrombie...] just to get back at him.
she's been talking all week about how she wanted to go to the cheesecake factory and hang out tonight, and so we both took naps, i called her, she said she was going to call her dad to see if she could get a ride over and then we could go to the mall. well, 2 1/2 hours later, i call her and was like "hey.. you never called back?" "oh yeah. i'm at the mall." "washington square?" "yeah." "oh, well you didnt call back so i was going to pick you up because i thought your dad wasnt coming down or something.. but i guess you're already there so nevermind." "ok. bye." thanks for totally ditching me? and not calling to let me know what was going on? thanks for forgetting about me, BFFZ FO LIFE!11!!1
anyway, then theres blair. we used to hang out all the time - bad thing about her - she cusses ALL the time, then i start, and it bugs the sheeiiit out of me. & she changes around people to fit in all the time. she was on my volleyball team [this year & last] and we've been friends since 6th grade. now, she made varsity basketball and is always busy and we never hang out anymore. we used to go to shows and hang out, watching movies alllll the time. now, we just hang out at school during lunch. :/
then, theres liz. we used to hang out in 7th, 8th, and last year. mostly in the summer. but i know i can always go to her to talk about anything, and she feels the same about me. even if we're not the best of friends anymore, we give eachother advice. now she's also busy with basketball, and we never hang out anymore, ever. :[
then theres my church friends! haha. [i go to a summer camp & winter camp during the year, i have gone to church once in the past 3 1/2 months. :X] and theres ty. DUMB GUITAR/DRUM PLAYING BOY THAT I'VE HAD A THING WITH FOR 2 YEARS. never should have started with him. :/ then theres dan, a cute shy boy. and brad, really annoying kid whos ty's best friend and also liked me [very awkward], then theres esther & kylie, who arent even friends anymore. i used to hang out with them a lot too, but i stopped going to church because of school... and i miss them. I miss how things used to be between us. we were so close. :/
the main point of this entry is I NEED to get away from kristen. shes selfish [i could go on forever] and does whats best for her, and she lies all the time. I used to spend everyday with her, doing the same thing and i just need new friends. but, i backed away from people in 8th grade because of my dad & and all and everyone just seems so immature to me. except for maybe 3 sophomore girls. I JUST WISH YOU ALL WENT TO MY SCHOOL SO I DIDNT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT STUFF LIKE THIS. I want new friends, but i dont feel like i want to hang out with anyone at my school, what do i do? I NEED NEW FRIENDS SJHSJHK :[
if you read that, or maybe even a couple paragraphs, i'd love you forever.
kristen is my best friend, and has been for 2 1/2 years now. she was the main person who actually was there for me when my dad died, and we became really close. her mom has parkinsons disease, and her parents divorced a while ago. her dad started dating, and he got his girlfriend pregnant and they are engaged now. anyway, kristen hated the baby - she was jealous - she actually wanted it to die. her dad now lives in salem most of the time, 30-45 minutes away. he's a doctor and makes good money, and since she has so much anger towards her dad, she makes him buy all the clothes she'd ever want [keep in mind she pretty much only shops at abercrombie...] just to get back at him.
she's been talking all week about how she wanted to go to the cheesecake factory and hang out tonight, and so we both took naps, i called her, she said she was going to call her dad to see if she could get a ride over and then we could go to the mall. well, 2 1/2 hours later, i call her and was like "hey.. you never called back?" "oh yeah. i'm at the mall." "washington square?" "yeah." "oh, well you didnt call back so i was going to pick you up because i thought your dad wasnt coming down or something.. but i guess you're already there so nevermind." "ok. bye." thanks for totally ditching me? and not calling to let me know what was going on? thanks for forgetting about me, BFFZ FO LIFE!11!!1
anyway, then theres blair. we used to hang out all the time - bad thing about her - she cusses ALL the time, then i start, and it bugs the sheeiiit out of me. & she changes around people to fit in all the time. she was on my volleyball team [this year & last] and we've been friends since 6th grade. now, she made varsity basketball and is always busy and we never hang out anymore. we used to go to shows and hang out, watching movies alllll the time. now, we just hang out at school during lunch. :/
then, theres liz. we used to hang out in 7th, 8th, and last year. mostly in the summer. but i know i can always go to her to talk about anything, and she feels the same about me. even if we're not the best of friends anymore, we give eachother advice. now she's also busy with basketball, and we never hang out anymore, ever. :[
then theres my church friends! haha. [i go to a summer camp & winter camp during the year, i have gone to church once in the past 3 1/2 months. :X] and theres ty. DUMB GUITAR/DRUM PLAYING BOY THAT I'VE HAD A THING WITH FOR 2 YEARS. never should have started with him. :/ then theres dan, a cute shy boy. and brad, really annoying kid whos ty's best friend and also liked me [very awkward], then theres esther & kylie, who arent even friends anymore. i used to hang out with them a lot too, but i stopped going to church because of school... and i miss them. I miss how things used to be between us. we were so close. :/
the main point of this entry is I NEED to get away from kristen. shes selfish [i could go on forever] and does whats best for her, and she lies all the time. I used to spend everyday with her, doing the same thing and i just need new friends. but, i backed away from people in 8th grade because of my dad & and all and everyone just seems so immature to me. except for maybe 3 sophomore girls. I JUST WISH YOU ALL WENT TO MY SCHOOL SO I DIDNT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT STUFF LIKE THIS. I want new friends, but i dont feel like i want to hang out with anyone at my school, what do i do? I NEED NEW FRIENDS SJHSJHK :[
if you read that, or maybe even a couple paragraphs, i'd love you forever.