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A lot of times I find myself sitting here wanting to read about other people's lives more than I feel like writing about my own. I enjoy sitting here and picking out the similarities among people, noticing just how much each teenager's life mirrors the lives of other teenagers. I realize it is terrible of me to say we're all the same, that we have been trained to value how unique we are, but we're not and I like it that way. If you take the time to step back and actually watch people, you can see yourself entering into a trainwreck you notice that you too are the way the person you were just talking about it and you realize there is no point in talking about them anymore because in turn, you are talking about yourself. I am not saying that I am above all of this because I am not. Whoever says they are must think their self a saint and many of us are far from this. I'm learning how to stand up for myself. Slowly but surely I am. I am realizing what I really want in life, what actually matters, what I want to be in the end, and where I'd like to go. It is not necessarily what I had always planned. It's roots may seem pompous to other people, but all I want is to feel in place. I guess we all seek that our entire lives. Once you actually feel like you fit in, there is nothing else to work for, no reason to better yourself. In that case, I'll be here, never really fitting anywhere, but always striving to.
Take me seriously. I am not as dumb as I seem.
Take me seriously. I am not as dumb as I seem.