Post-meditation reflections
I just did Heather Waxman's Raise Your Vibration meditation from her album, "Soul Sessions" and it seriously feels like I hit the reset button on my day. The tightness in my shoulders is coming and going, but isn't digging in its claws like normal or like earlier today.
It would be easy to say "Greg brought me down" last night...and perhaps his grim reflections contributed to the foul mood today. But I take responsibility for my actions and feelings now, so staying that way today was/is my choice. Now, I choose to hit reboot and embrace the moment. It feels good to just acknowledge that I was feeling kind of emotionally crappy, then to sit with it, let it ride, not judge or try to qualify it, and meditate with it in me. It makes me feel more whole and love myself more to know that I CAN control how I feel.
At the same time, I can once again extend love to Greg. He needs it in those moments, whether it's an ear to listen, a hug, or just to let out his feelings about the world at large. It's not for me to decide that what he feels or what I feel is "right" or "wrong." Those are arbitrary human judgements and the feelings and emotions of the heart cannot be seen that way. To even try to see them that way lessens their impact and truth.
Much of what Greg said is stuff with which I agree. That people are so immersed in social media they can't hold conversations, that our society basically schools people and "educates" children to become better batteries in a large machine...these are things I feel to be true, as well, especially as I've entered the "real" working world. It's hard to feel my light shine in my job sometimes, and I don't feel it's quite where my destiny lies. I think I'm meant to speak out about issues--be it homelessness (like Donna Beegle, with whom I may try to snag a post in the Portland future), true pro-life stances, education, etc. I want to speak truth and to share love with others, to help them see beyond materials possessions to the love and light that does lie within us all. I want to write and have my creativity challenged often, to be truly heard, even if only by a few. I want to have good, strong, life-changing discussions in my work, like the kind Greg and I have that challenge the way I view the world and the way I think about my future.
In one way or another, Greg truly is a kindred spirit. I'm grateful that he brings out the thoughtful side of me, the side that makes me look at what I do day to day and think, "I can do so much better, so much bigger, so much more meaningful work." He's always seen that in me, and I want to help him see that in himself and help others see it in themselves, too.
So, maybe those are good "categories" with which to start examining my passions:
-speaking
-writing (creatively and intellectually)
-engaging
-connecting
-soul searching through works of art, fiction, non-fiction, etc.
-being love in my work
I know there are ways to be love in my work now, and part of the reboot of meditation is to let go of feeling like what I do is somehow less and realize and appreciate that where I am is where I'm meant to be, and that I have everything I need around me and, more importantly, inside of me.
To the work ahead...cheers, with Passport, from LGO :)
It would be easy to say "Greg brought me down" last night...and perhaps his grim reflections contributed to the foul mood today. But I take responsibility for my actions and feelings now, so staying that way today was/is my choice. Now, I choose to hit reboot and embrace the moment. It feels good to just acknowledge that I was feeling kind of emotionally crappy, then to sit with it, let it ride, not judge or try to qualify it, and meditate with it in me. It makes me feel more whole and love myself more to know that I CAN control how I feel.
At the same time, I can once again extend love to Greg. He needs it in those moments, whether it's an ear to listen, a hug, or just to let out his feelings about the world at large. It's not for me to decide that what he feels or what I feel is "right" or "wrong." Those are arbitrary human judgements and the feelings and emotions of the heart cannot be seen that way. To even try to see them that way lessens their impact and truth.
Much of what Greg said is stuff with which I agree. That people are so immersed in social media they can't hold conversations, that our society basically schools people and "educates" children to become better batteries in a large machine...these are things I feel to be true, as well, especially as I've entered the "real" working world. It's hard to feel my light shine in my job sometimes, and I don't feel it's quite where my destiny lies. I think I'm meant to speak out about issues--be it homelessness (like Donna Beegle, with whom I may try to snag a post in the Portland future), true pro-life stances, education, etc. I want to speak truth and to share love with others, to help them see beyond materials possessions to the love and light that does lie within us all. I want to write and have my creativity challenged often, to be truly heard, even if only by a few. I want to have good, strong, life-changing discussions in my work, like the kind Greg and I have that challenge the way I view the world and the way I think about my future.
In one way or another, Greg truly is a kindred spirit. I'm grateful that he brings out the thoughtful side of me, the side that makes me look at what I do day to day and think, "I can do so much better, so much bigger, so much more meaningful work." He's always seen that in me, and I want to help him see that in himself and help others see it in themselves, too.
So, maybe those are good "categories" with which to start examining my passions:
-speaking
-writing (creatively and intellectually)
-engaging
-connecting
-soul searching through works of art, fiction, non-fiction, etc.
-being love in my work
I know there are ways to be love in my work now, and part of the reboot of meditation is to let go of feeling like what I do is somehow less and realize and appreciate that where I am is where I'm meant to be, and that I have everything I need around me and, more importantly, inside of me.
To the work ahead...cheers, with Passport, from LGO :)