(no subject)
I've decided that I'm not happy, at least for moment. I'm truly worried about my sister, who is kind of schizophrenic. I can't do anything about it, I can't even see her because she's in Massachusetts. She's supposed to visit for christmas. I hope that happens. I've been quite disturbed about finding out about all of the mental illness that runs in my family. I got lucky i guess, just a little crazy in me. But what about my kids? They're going to have issues for sure....everyone's got issues.
I'm lonely. It's been quite a while since I've been with someone, physically and mentally. I like being single, but it is getting tiring. I don't want to have to work so hard to connect with people. It should just happen naturally. I'm not really worried about finding someone, and there have been a few people that I could see myself with, but I know it's probably the worst time to get involved with anyone since I'm graduating in may, and I'm usually busy with things. I am lonely.
On the other hand, I had a really great musical audition the other day.
I'm still not sure what I want in life, I kind of know what I want to do now, but the hard part is going and trying to make it in the real world. Into The Woods pisses me off. In the last scene. I'm just better than that, and honestly I feel like it wasted my time and talent. People and their fucking connections. Why must I kiss ass to get ahead?
I'm not very happy at the moment. Maybe I'll write a song.
I'm lonely. It's been quite a while since I've been with someone, physically and mentally. I like being single, but it is getting tiring. I don't want to have to work so hard to connect with people. It should just happen naturally. I'm not really worried about finding someone, and there have been a few people that I could see myself with, but I know it's probably the worst time to get involved with anyone since I'm graduating in may, and I'm usually busy with things. I am lonely.
On the other hand, I had a really great musical audition the other day.
I'm still not sure what I want in life, I kind of know what I want to do now, but the hard part is going and trying to make it in the real world. Into The Woods pisses me off. In the last scene. I'm just better than that, and honestly I feel like it wasted my time and talent. People and their fucking connections. Why must I kiss ass to get ahead?
I'm not very happy at the moment. Maybe I'll write a song.